Her Words

2009-11-17T16:41:00.001+08:00

Hello People .
Well , since you guys want to know about me , how bout you guys just read here . (: I'm just gonna type every single true facts about me aites ! (: & Oh , no comments needed ..

1) Name is SHUD . You guys no need to know what's my real name cause I don't & NEVER write my real name on the net . (:
2) Age 14 .
3) Can be irritating at times .
4) I'm hardest to understand . Example:

If you guys keep on saying the same thing over and over again , I might ignore you.
I don't usually tell that someone I love them as my friend or whatsoever . If I did say I love you , it's either that I'm lying (oops!) or it's the truth . But you guys can never figure out cause no matter what , I'll hide the truth . (:
If I called you BITCH / BABES / DUDE , it kinda mean you're the greatest friend ! :D So don't take it too hard yeah ?
I'm used to being alone / isolated . SO you guys don't bother trying to isolate me cause I'll never feel a thing . (This doesn't mean I'm an emo !:D)
Don't mind my facial expression . I may looked arrogant to some (or maybe all) but I'm not . I'm just shy / have nothing to say and I prefer to keep quiet . So break the ice & you'll see the real me . (:
I don't entertain highly sexual type of people . Sex maniac / mat / minah are not my type . (: If you wanna be my friend , put that aside . (:
I don't usually cry in front of people .. But if I do , I'll go to the bathroom & soaked in icy cold water as my punishment OR I'll eat 4-6 tablets of Panadol and dozed off to sleep . (:
I do give out my number . But once you started texting me , I'll never stop replying cause I'm always bored ! :D
I'm always happy / laughing / smiling .
I never share my real problems with anyone . I prefer keeping it all inside . (:
I may look like I never give a damn about anything , but the truth is , I CARE !

5) A BIG FAN OF MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE ! :D
6) I love the Black , Red , White , Blue ! :D
7) I love animals , even though I kinda afraid of it . xD
8) I love flowers ! :D
9) I'm loving chocolates ! :D
10) Yes , some of you (guys) will keep on asking this very damn irritating question about my Relationship Life .

Yes , I'm single .
No , I'm not looking for anyone right now . (: Even if I do , I'll say I don't ! :D
I've NO Ex-s , I'm forever Single ! :D HAHAHAHAH
Some might ask why I wanna remain single .. Well .. I just want a guy who could accept the way I am .. I want a long-lasting relationship .. Not some relationship where by it'll stay with me for a few days/weeks/months/years . I want a FOREVER ! For now I'm not looking for anyone cause I need to heal my broken heart . (: Don't bother asking .

11) I'm forever Strong Lady ! :D
12) I'm friendly to both sex ! I'm not sexist or anything with -ist behind !
13) I do meet some of my internet friends but not one-on-one ! :D
14) I do listen to hardcore / metalcore / scremo / emo / punk / rock songs when I'm down . So if you see me listening to those kind of songs , I'm not okay & NEVER try to irritate me . (:
15) I do listen to Jiwang(s) / ballad / dance / pop songs when I'm alright / having a crush on someone . :D But if you see I listen to both kind (from 14 & 15) it means I'm just listening to it for fun . (:
17) I love dance ! :D And I need someone to teach me choreography .. & Fyi , I've no experienced . xD
18) I love singing ! :D But I don't know if I can sing or not !xD HAHAHAHAHAH...
19) I love all my friends .. (: But I just don't show it .
20) I love all kind of art ! :D I love sketches , painting and all sorts . (:
21) I LOVE beatboxing ! :D They're a bunch of cool kiddos ! :D
22) I listen to rap songs .. (:
23) I LOVE SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS ! :D
24) I can be your "another weirdo you wish you hadn't met" if you hurt me .
25) I'm vengeful . (: I never let anyone off so easily once they've taken something from me / hurt me ... (:
26) I don't wear girl tee/jeans or anything related to a girl when I'm out with friends cause I'm not used to it .. xD I'll feel weird ! lol!

I've been wearing guys shirt since I'm P5 which is 3 or 4 years ago .
I don't know the name of girls shirt .. I don't know how to differentiate it . xD
I love 3/4 cut jeans with messy prints .
I love hoodies ..
I love Tees with messy & splats prints .:D
I love sneakers !
I do have dress & high heels & hand bags which goes perfectly well together but I NEVER wear it . :D Haha ..

27) I appreciated gifts I received , even if I've break it , I'll try to fix it .

I received one gift as a birthday gift when I'm P6 , which is 2 years ago from my Bestest Friend ever . She gave me this pot with a flower (a small one but fake) in a plastic & it's really really beautiful ! :D After few months , my lil'bro broke it . I believed if one thing which a friend of mind gave me is BROKEN / CRACKED , it symbolised our relationship . When the pot fall to the ground into pieces , I fixed it back . Yeah , I kinda put it back together & sealed it with a low quality transparent nail polish .

28) Refer to the above point : I don't keep anything a friend gave me if we're no longer friends .
29) I believe one thing about friendship . It's like a glass .. Fragile & yet so pure . But once you broke it , there's no way you can fix it back . Even if you did so , there's always a mark which will reminds you about your broken friendship . (:
30) It took me a few months/years to forget someone .
31) When I post this kinda things like past broken friendships/relationships/crushes , I'll always hope that particular someone will view my blog & read what I post .
32) If someone hurt my feelings , I'll scribble everything in my diary & wish how wonderful it would be if I'm able to shove my diary in their face ! :D

I guess that's it ! (: Well , I'll update more if there's anything you wanna know ! :D Just leave me a message on MSN , Tagged , Facebook , Twitter or my phone & I'll get back to you . (:
For now , let's leave it this way for 2 weeks ! :D

-sHd-

2009-09-23T21:13:00.002+08:00

Hey ~

Hello ~ :D

Okeh , i'm just bored today . (:

Oh oh , this dude in my class , seriously doesn't know how to take a good hard look in the mirror ! He called my friend " GAY ! " -.- Haha , and he called my other friend " fat ass ! " HAHA !

Like as if he's hunk enough to call people that .. -.-

Whatever .

I'm half dead in class today . (: This week alone , I've been sleeping for only 3 hours everyday ! Yes , every single day ! -.-

Thanks to bro who made me suffer and thanks to myself for panicking like hell . -.-

Okay , wait . I forgot why I'm here . You see , I've been busy & bro keep coming up to me asking me questions and I'll get distracted . Oh oh ... Wait ..

Yeah , uh ... I fell in love with Fie again . (: Aww .... HAHA ! :D

I guess I'm gonna move again .. & re-unite with my Fie . (:

LOL .. Only certain people know who's Fie . You don't know ? You shuddduppp (:

-sHd-

2009-09-22T16:03:00.002+08:00

Helloh !~ :D

Okay , just came back home from school . Yeah , school's great today . (: Played PE , floorball . Haha , fun okay ! :D No offence but I think everyone just crowd around the ball , LOL ! No strategies . Whatever .

Crapped around with Aliff and at the same time , studied for Sci test today . Oh yeah , thanks alot . He helped me booked a "memorial" place .. Somewhere where they buried MJ . (: LOL !

And yeah , I'm already booked by people ! :D Yesaahh ..

Going out for raya like on this Thurs . This weekends . Monday . Maybe Thursday . (:

Woots ~ This time round , I could sense that Raya was gonna be a hell full of blast ! :D

PS , I welcomed Spammers ! :D Thank You . Tag all you want . I know you love my blog truckloads (that if you didn't drop by one day , you'll die) ...

-sHd-

2009-09-21T09:52:00.002+08:00

Oh Yeah ! :D

I'm starting new ! I wanna be the old me entirely which also means , no more love - mushy shits (: Yes , I've made up my mind . (: This time round , I'm fucking sure ! :D

Oh yes , I'm back ystd but can't online . I was ultimately tired . And guess what , something's wrong with my house . Ystd when we reach home from ******* , we all went for Raya .. At first when we got home , before going for Raya , I felt different . So whatever , ignore and yeah , went out .

At night when we reached home ard 10.32 pm , I was talking to my dad while he open all the windows . Then I walked to my mum in her room and help her took off her lenses . While I was talking to my mum , dad rushed in , rubbing his arm .

D : Did any of you guys go to the kitchen just recently ? Like 2-3 mins ago ?

S : No . Why ?

D : Did any of you say anything ?

S : I was here helping mum took off her lenses and that's all . Why ?

D :I heard someone whispers in my ear saying " bukakan bang ... " but when I turn , no one's behind .

S : Oh , then , who's that ? If you wanna say it's either one of us , then that's nonsense cause you can hear footsteps if we run ....

So who's that ?

I told my bro and he wasn't shocked at all cause he said recently , he felt someone peeped him from MY ROOM ! MY ROOM !!!

-.- , whoever that is or whatever it is ... I don't care anymore .

-sHd-

2009-09-15T23:38:00.002+08:00

Oh yeah , I'm fucked up .

Guess what .. I've been screwing up my life today . First thing in the morning , I was pissed off with my bro cause he lied to me . Then I fall asleep but alrd set alarm at 6.45 am yet mum still wakes me up at 6.30 am . -.- Then , in school .. I was crapping around with Aliff when I saw HIM .. Aww .. His big brown eyes always makes me melts .. LOL .. Yeah , he stares at me .. I looked down .. But then , I looked up and he smiled at me .. So yeah , smiled back but rush to the class.. lol .. xD

Okeh , okeh ..

Then after that , been seeing him like 4 times today ? .. Yeah ... Then , during Sci .. I almost dozed off and didn't even catch a thing . During math , I was like one - in - a - milion - dumbass . I can't get what she's talking .... -.-

After school , day was extremely humid . I was sweating alot .. & UC asked me if I wanna tag along to lib to study . Called dad and he's sleeping . Almost mad at me but told him my exams are like 2 weeks from now . So , reached lib , talk about some stuff to Zaf and yeah , got told by the lady who worked there to keep quiet or we'll be thrown out . Then I saw this guy who looks alot like Akmal .. Just that his way of dressing is much more unique ! :D I LIKE ~ :D

So after that , "confronted" Sha , Zaf , cDah & Shekz . Nat & Lala went off alrd . So the 4 of us went to JP , jd minah pasar jab . -.- In the mrt control station , I cried in front of cDah . LOL . It's not like I wanted to .. LOL .. She dig out my deepest darkest secret and yeah .. I was like fucked up and end up crying .. LOL .. xD

So reached home & was damn tired . Bathe , texted Shoot Vengeance , my Abg Angkat ... Blahblahblah .. They didn't reply .. Urghh ..

So decided to text Akmal .. Crapped abit and yeah , helped mum in the kitchen & then fall asleep for a while . Woke up and washed my face & break fast . I don't have any appetite to eat today .. I was so stressed out .. -.-

At 7.30 pm , do my homework only then I realized tmrw's Sci lesson is the 2nd period . I was panicking & freaked out cause I dont have workbook ..

At 8pm , went out to Syasya (?) 's house and asked her .. Gawd , she didnt have it .-.-

So then I strted calling people ..

Called

Akmal
Aliff
Faiq
Howie
Juana
Ayu Sista
Kuganes
Lala
Mei Li
Nad
NatyQa
Rasyidah
Yu Ling
Zaf

But guess what .. Out of all this people , only Yu Ling who manage to lend me her book .. Walked with bro all the way to PSS bus stop , took the book and was like rushing to GP .. I only got 10mins left . SO was freaking out . All calls & msges I received I turn it off .

Day was about to rain .. & I was soaking with sweat . My whole tee was wet like as if it's raining . Print out my stuff and bro wanted to buy bubbletea . So bought it and was slacking .. Walked back home and yeah .. Check my pp8 .. From $18.80 to $9.70 .-.-

Reached home and complete my maths & sci . Sci hmwk was seriously driving me nuts . I was so fucked up . Then I was looking for my correction tape & can't find it . Again , I got even more fucked up ... I threw away everything that I can get , including my phone , to the floor ... Bro was trying to calm me down and asked if Im fine ..

I just blew out and screamed at him .. He was shocked and rush out of my room ... I sat & lie down .. Took my phone & went otp with Zaf .. After an hour , dad call me .. So hung up and pretend everythings fine ..

Now , my hmwk is incomplete! Seriously , I think I'm gonna flunk !

-sHd-

2009-09-14T22:24:00.002+08:00

Hey There (:

Yeah , I've made up my mind . I'll be learning to live without you . Yeah , be glad that you're the first to be in my mind & heart . Be proud that you're the first guy who manage to changed me back to a real girl (although I hated it) , and also make me shed tears for you for the past 7 months , ever since I've confessed & you left . Wow , you're such a great impact to me . But thanks alot to alot of things that have been happening to my life since then . (: It all make a huge & meaningful sense to me now . Don't worry about me . I'm gonna change back to myself , adopt to the fact that you don't exist in my life , and also pretend this whole thing never happen before . Oh yeah , one more thing .. Be the most proud guy ever , you're the first & last guy who entered to my heart . Those guys who're with me before doesn't make a sensible thing to me at all . Yes , be proud cause you're the first ....& After this , no one will ever see me cry again . Once again , all thanks to you . (:

Okay , I'm freezing right now . Guess what , bro turn on the air-cond full blast with power ! It's directly facing me .. & I can't find the remote .. How great ? =.=

Yeah , this holidays , I manage to change . (: I've been slacking alot & yesssaaaahhh ... (:
I've watched alot of animes . Haha , used to be a big fan . But like I said .. This dude changed me .. & I spent like , 7 months of my life , listening to some depressing songs and writing stupid love songs , poems & stories .. -.-

Watched skip beat and this anime which Idk what's the title .. Haha .. & I watched Lovely Complex , oh yeah , the story is like ... Damn sad .. LOL ! xD Andand .. Now , I wanna watch all 3 season of Jigoku Shoujo .. :D
Oh yeah , the 3rd season was awesome ! :D

You guys should watch .. (:
Go to animeshippuuden.com (:
OR anilinkz.com (:

Okehh ..
Byebye ~
-sHd-

2009-09-11T18:49:00.002+08:00

WOOTS~ :D

Helloh people . SORRY for not updating . I was uhh ... away ? Yeah , whatever . Okay , view that video to ease yourself ! Got it from my bro ... Just view & understand it .. & You'll LOL . (;

Basically , I have nothing much to say .. Except for some people who thought I'm SPAMMER in ZAf's blog . Haha .. Well , I do admit it was me in the first place .. But then that someone mention about going to her blog ? LOL , I don't even know what's her blog link .. I stop writing my name as SPAMMER when she said something like not talking to me .. ? So yeah , after that , wasn't me anymore .. I don't think I have to elaborate more cause I know myself better than anyone else , so yeah . (: You just mind your own business yeah . (:

& Girl , I'm sorry that my appearences bother you too much . You should relax more & think more about yourself instead of others . (:

Haha ... Whatever .. She's just disgracing her "own people" , if you guys understand what I mean . (:

Okay , till here . Goodbyes ~

-sHd-

2009-09-09T16:16:00.004+08:00

Everyday as I open my eyes

I felt a cold breeze on my skin .

And everytime that happens ,

I'm always thankful

That I'm given a chance to live again ..

Sitting by the window

Counting down days to go .

Thinking how will it be

If things were meant to change .

The pain I'm going through

Is much more painful

Than the scars I left on you .

Everyday as I went to bed

I prayed hard that I'll be given a chance

To wake up again

And feel the breeze .

Before I close my eyes

I always felt different than before

I don't know why ..

You're the only reason

I'm here now .

And you're the reason too

Why there's pain & scars

In my heart & soul ..

Oh gawd . I was scolded by dad cause I didn't wake him up at 2.30 pm . I woke him up at 3.15 and he was damn pissed . LOL .

Mum's mad at me cause because of me , she had to wait under the sun for my dad to pick her up .. LOL .. Again , I'm sorry .

Reached home , dad was being very sarcastic . -.- Hah , like as if I can't take it . xD

Mum forced me to go Gek Poh to buy stuff for later . -.- Haha , whatever .

& tell me what I've done wrong ..

-sHd-

2009-09-09T00:22:00.003+08:00

I can't breathe .

I can't hold on .

My time has come .

Goodbye is the only word .

And You'll never again ,

See me cry

Pretending & hiding emotions

It'll become your memories .

It feels like yesterday

That we met .

How fast time flies

That you didn't even realized .

Seeing your tears fall down to earth

Is like a knife stab me in the heart .

I can barely hold on when you lied

Just to make me feel good .

I'm blaming you now

That my heart's bleeding .

I'm blaming you now

That I'm torn into pieces .

I'm broken inside .

Those smiles

Those eyes

It's just killing me more .

They're my poison now .

WOOTS ~ :D

Today is .. Uhh , let's see .. Gerek ? Yeah , I guess . OKeh , went out to meet Zaf , her guy & syidah (?) . Oh yeah , Kak Erni's tagging along . :D

So I took the bus and Kak Erni is in the bus in ahead of me . HAHA . So alighted from the bus 1 stop away from the place we actually plan to meet .

So walked to lib and omg .. Lala , Sha & Nat is there too ! :D HAHA . I thought it's only 5 of us . HEH . But hey , Zaf's guy not with us . Urghhh ... -.-

Thought of learning guitar with him too .. HAHA . [kalau boleh la kan (;]

Well , gossipped & chat abt stuff to kill time . At 6++ , Zaf & Sha went back home . So Kak Erni & I went to JP , accompanied her to take photos of her & Jonas for her 6-months Anniversary tomorrow ~ :D

HAPPY 6 MONTHS ANNI , BABE ! :D

After that , took bus and went back home . Oh gawd . Prepaid's low . -.-

Dad's been checking on me again and again . -.- Oh , not only him .. Mum & bro too ! ..

And a friend of mine texted me .. Asking where I am & yadaayadaayadaa ..

LOL . Yknow , I don't feel like posting . I'm ultimately bored . No one's online . -.-

-sHd-

2009-09-08T02:51:00.003+08:00

Hey , hello ! :D

Well , by now all homework should be done , well .. Thats what stated in my schedule . LOL. .

Not sleeping cause I'm painting my bro's room . Haizz , I thought that when we're done painting the hall , I'm free from all this but no ! Urghh ..

Tomorrow , will be going out with Zaf , her guy & Kak Erni . At first , it's just the 3 of us but guess what , I don't wanna be the extra / odd one out when the couplek is having fun .. -.- So decided to ask her out too .. (;

Haizz .. Still can't sleep .. Still have to wait till its dry to re-paint it again and scrap the messed up ones . -.-

Okeh la kan . Aku bored .

Bye ~ :D

-sHd-

2009-09-07T21:47:00.002+08:00

WOW .. What a day ...

I'm just posting cause I'm bored & pissed off .

Online & none who wanna talk to me . How great ..

Have a friend who calls themselves friends but avoid me when we meet .

Again .. How great could this be ?

& Oh ..

I think I needa see a counsellor . I needa let evrything out.

Yes .. Evrything is holding me back ..

I didn't get to stand up among all the peeps .

This thing is like an algae in my heart . It's been there since forever .

How much longer could it be ?

Hold me , I need you now . All in me now is you .

Can you do it ? I don't have much time left .

Tomorrow's gonna be today .

And I've to go .

You don't have to cry .

If you treasure me , I'm gonna be with you .

Forever in your heart .

Till the day I close my eyes

Till the day I'm burried to the ground .

Hold me now .

Find me now .

I'll be by the lake

With a white dress

Watching swans & waiting for you .

Hurry up before the sun shows itself .

Sweet raptured life , it ends here tonight ..

-sHd-

2009-09-06T23:38:00.004+08:00

Helloh People ! I'm back ! :D

OKay , I forgot that my parents are working & my bro had to go to school , so cancelled the whole plan . Went to Geylang on Saturday . So bought Hari Raya clothes .. && yeah , again , everyone changed plan . Instead of blue , we all bought red/pink .. -.-

Whatever , not a big deal to me anymore .. (:

Reached home at 1.30 am . Bathe and slept for a while . Dad woke me up at 3 am , told me everyone's going to JB .. & asked if I wanna tag along . So fine ..

Went to JB , & go sahur skali . Ate Prata & Teh Tarik only cause when we're at Geylang , my dad brought us to the restaurant in Tanjong Katong Complex & we ate like there's no tomorrow ..

Our bill was $ 130 . (: LOL .

Reach my Grandparents house at 5 am , brush teeth , change clothes and slept .

The next day , pack up everything and went off at I-don't-know-what time . So went to Jusco at Bukit Indah . Our plan was to buy stuff for my bro cause he's renovating it . So needs my plan badly .. See , I'm wanted by him .. (; CHEYCHEY !..

So bought some furni for him . Then dad told me I should go shopping too cause he didn't see me wearing new stuff .. LOL , I do have it .. Quite alot , but didn't wanna wear it .. (; LOL ..

So yeah , bought hoods & a tee which cost me RM 105.90 . See , no wonder people tell me that if I took part in a Who-manage-to-finish-$500-in-a-day challenge , I'll win . HAHA ..

After that , went makan at pizza hut .

Ate alot and our bill is like 100++ almost RM 200 . Then ride back home .

Reach home , bathe & dad told me how I wanna wear that hoods . So I found this tube top in my room and wear my 3/4 cut jeans with that hoods ! :D

WOah , gerek ! :D & bro told me I look more like skater kiddos . =_=

When we're shopping , mum suddenly remembered she forgot to take the paper bag which hav my bro's shoes ! So I called out for my bro to accompany go to the basement and take . -.-

We have to hurry cause we're alrd 30 mins upstairs . ANything could happen !

So I thought that I was running with my bro , but then I realized I'm alone . -.-

So while I was running & almost reach the escalator , there's this groups of Mat Reps came close to me & was like " Lari dek ? Nk abg temankan ? " . So I was pissed off , & flashed my mid-finger . They guys were like giving me the " wtf " look .. Haha , sial kau Mat Rep ! xD

-sHd-

2009-09-05T06:05:00.002+08:00

Helloh readers , morning ! (:

OKay , daddy told me to accompany him go JB . Yeay ! :D So , won't sleep now . Gotta help dad fix the floor . There's a crack on it .. Why ? Because I accidentally hit it hard with a hammer few months ago ! :D WOOT ~ (:

LOL , well , even if it's not my fault , I'll still wanna help cause I wanna try doing it .. I wanna built my own house when I buy it , like how he do it when he first got married with my mum .. (:
Confirm gerek nye ! ~ :D

Okay , I can't talk more .. Just info . I might be staying in JB this week . Aww , I can't receive / sent sms from there .. ):But nvm , I'll be back right ?

Oh yeah , SHOOT ! :D
I'm staying at JB .. hopefully , we'll meet up soon aites ~ (;
Sayang kau many-many . (:

Sayonara Goodbye ~
-sHd-

2009-09-04T23:21:00.003+08:00

Yknow , most of the time , I'm the one who'll advice people abt their relationship . But today , Rara is the one who adviced me NOW . Well , ntah la ehk .

Half of me said I should move on . But half insisted . How ?

Honestly , sometimes I think , I shouldn't have grown closer to the girls . I've never been like this before . I used to hang up with guys only . I don't know a single thing about make-up , dresses , skirts , top .. My way of dressing is only sneakers , 3/4 cut jeans and an oversized tee . My hair used to be short , spiked-up , highlighted . I have 2 piercing on my ear without my family knowing it . Yes , life used to be hell but with great sensation .

But now , ever since I'm separated from the guys , I became friends with girls . Peer pressure , they talk about boys , hawtstuffs , relationships .. And , I became one of them . I put aside all my jeans , tee , shorts .. I closed my piercing back .. I grew my hair long again . I coloured my hair black as before .. Now , I went shopping .. Buying skirts , dresses .. Jewelleries .. & hoping to win his heart . Aiming for relationships .

See how I've changed ? & Now , I became a quiet , shy , unnoticeable girl ever since I had friendship problems back in Sec 1 . I tell myself , ' friends come & go' , ' I don't need them ' .. But deep inside , how I wish some miracle would happen .

Now I suffered . Yes .. I became a girl , again . I used to hold on to myself . Hide my tears . But now , I can't do all that . Why ? Because of the guy I cared for . I shed every tears I got since he left . I shed more tears when he lied to me .. At night , I cried myself to sleep . I was half insane . I cried & sing to myself to sleep . Sometimes , I even cried & laugh at the same time . I ate 6 tablets of panadols to sleep , to ease myself ..

Now , I'm sick . Yes , sick . I guess I have [insert word] problems . I went to see a doctor on Monday when I'm absent from school . I told her , she said come back again if the pain continues . She need to do further check up . But I don't want to . No one actually know what sickness I've got . Except for [insert name] . My family don't even know . That's why I can't go to the doctor again .. I don't have any other excuses ..

That's why I always asked myself . If one day I know that today is my last day , would any miracles happen ? Would someone who I cared for step into my life again ? Instead of giving me hell , would he make me feel happy ? Would anyone told me how much I mean to them ? Would anyone stop saying that I'm useless ? Would there be anything for me ?

I need someone to answer this question . A group of people who regard themselves as my friend . I've been posting similar post like this before .. Hoping to get a response . But none actually came . I'm hurt . Badly hurt . I've no one to talk to . But those people who regard themselves as my friends didn't actually came to my blog .

If no one's gonna share those pain I have with me , then , it's the end of me to post this kind of things . & now , how everything had came to my senses .. Family .. Friends .. Relationships ..
I suck at them all .

-sHd-

2009-09-04T13:22:00.002+08:00

Alamak ! Got back my results today . Guess what , I FAILED !
YEAH ! [F] [A] [I] [L] [E] [D] .. Well , failed maths badly .
I got 26/100 . Just how cool is that ? -.- F9 baby !! ..
Okay , I passed the rest . Phew ..

& Oh yeah , saw HIM while walking down the stairs . Alamak , his brown eyes , lawaa lah ! LOL ! But didn't saw Kak Erni today . Well , I've done something for her I wanted to give it to her today . (: Yeah , that thing is drop-dead gorgeous ! o_0

I'll go on breaking ups
If you're still in me .

I thought by being with someone
Could make me forget you
But unfortunately , no .
It seems that I'm heartless
To leave a good guy alone .
But I'm sorry .
I never want it to be that way .

However , I wish you know
How much I love you .
If only I could give my heart to you
So that you'll know
How exactly I feel .
How sad to know ,
Our relationship lasted
For only half a month .

-sHd-

2009-09-03T21:25:00.002+08:00

Helloh ! :D

I'm officially Jack Adil's adek angkat today (030909) at 5.28pm according to my time . (: LOL ..

Okeh , nari gerek ! :D
Well , recess , I spent time with Man , Izz , Aliff , Reza (?) .. Well , Man taught me something which I didn't know .. Woah ..

He taught me religious stuff .. Yeah , with Izz distracting the lesson .. LOL !

Then we went to court yard and seriously , ever since Man grew closer to Aliff , he become like him , CRAPPY ! -.- He told me that I've the symptoms of smth just because my pencil case & bag is like that .. -.-
Mnr la aku tau kan .. ? LOL .

The whole day , all of us slacked . We crapped around and at the same time , Man become my religious teacher .. LOL ..

After school , Dad ride me home . Well , I'm in a rush . So , when I'm walking in front of me , he told me to wait . Then he hold my neck and he said , "Don't move ! There's spider on your neck ! "
I was like "Alamak .. " and freaked out . LOL ! Ahaha ..
So reached home at 2.15 pm .. Rush to the bathroom and bath .. I wash my hair , AGAIN . LOL , takot2 ader spider ka perh kan .. (;

SO changed and left at 2.30 pm on the dot , according to my time . Today , we all went to this farm .. High Tech Farm ..

Reached there and texted hunny & Jack . And then , connection problem ! Alamak , fed up seh ! Fuyoo .. Can't received & sent msges .. -.-

Oh yeah , I'm alone again . (:
Yehyeh ..
We're over . DS no longer exist . (':

This is gonna be the first & last I shed a tear for a guy . Walked home and was like , In a mess . So Jack texted me and ye lah , happy sikit kan ?

You see , everything happens for a reason .
& I'm always the reason why .

-sHd-

2009-09-02T20:51:00.003+08:00

Hey ..

Yeah .. Now that I felt how I've already drifted apart from everyone .. I'm faraway .. Far from everyone I guess . I sat alone in my room with no one to talks to . In school , yeah , I sat with friends . But then , they'll keep quiet , ignore my existence or just sit at some other places .
Yeah , faraway ...
Even when I speak , they'll just say 'yeah' to everything . I mean , if you don't wanna talk , tell me in the face .

OR , in the middle of the conversation , they'll speak to someone else or do something else ..
Friends ?
Cam ni perh ?

&&& We have group name .. UC ..
Well , I don't know who came up with it .. But I know it started off when one of my friends have problems . I used to tagged her blog saying that the usual crew is always there for her .. Well , instead of people , I use crew cause if we use short froms , then it'll be UP .. ? LOL , so UC sounds better . (;

But then , everything changes as we go on . Guess we don't have much faith / trust in ourselves . To be honest guys , I've never felt I'm part of anyone & yet people tell me ' I wish I were you ' .
Bullshit , yeah pure bullshit ! Seriously ..

In my life , ever since that thing happened due to my dumbness , things changed . I was 10 that time & now I'm 14 .. It's already 4 years .. 4 years of not being part of someone .
No one actually knows my life , & yet they pretended they know everything about me . Even if I told you about my life , you'll be 'Are you joking ? ' -.-

I need friends . That's all I've craved for but people seem to ignore it cause they already have "the world of their own" leaving those who're without friends to live on their own .

Guys , thank you so much . I've learnt something today ... I've realized it ..
You don't & will never treasure our friendship .
Thanks for everything ...

That's why I always asked , if one day I were about to die , would anyone come to accompany me till my last breath ?

-sHd-

2009-09-01T22:17:00.002+08:00

Helloh .

Knape bulan ni sume org cume cam siak ? -.-
Seriously , bulan ni bnyk org cari pasal ...

"Ingat , ni bulan Ramadhan . Bulan penuh berkat " BULLSHIT ! PURE BULLSHIT ! ..

Aku tak kan mengamok ngan orang kalau org tu tk ber-bullshit ngan aku .. Kau jgn fikir kau nye line tu boleh bagi aku ckp ngan kau ' sorry ' .. You have to try harder to hear my ' sorry ' .. -.-

Kau jgn nk ingatkan aku .. Sebelum kau ingatkan aku , kau ingatkan diri kau tu dulu . Kau fikir , kalau kau tak mepek ngan aku .. Kau fikir aku nk ngamok ngan kau ? Kalau kau tk tuduh aku sembarang , kau fikir aku nk mrh per ? -.-
Pure bullshit la wei ! ..

Seriously , kau fikir dulu ! .. Ade otak bwat pe kalau tk nk di gunakan utk berfikir ?

Aku lagi rela sial hidop sendiri kat dunia ni tanpa kwn & sedare sendiri !
-sHd-

2009-09-01T05:38:00.000+08:00

HEYHOHEYHO ! :D

Aku bored . Yok ber-talking ? (:

-sHd-

2009-08-31T21:32:00.002+08:00

Fulamak !
Gerek pe nari ! :D

Okeh , I skipped school today . YeahYeah . Again ! :D
Ha , siak . Aku da tk der mood lagi nk gy school .. Biar je la kan ? (:
Kalau aku dtg sch pon , bukannya ader org notice .. Sedangkan ni aku tk dtg sch .. Org leh tk prasan ..
Amaciaaam ??

Okeh , aku bored giler ni !
Online justnow to chat with a new friend , Akmal . Nope , that Akmal . I met new Akmal . He's 14 . (:
Seriously , I was just about to chat with him when bro told me to get out cause he wanna pray .. -.- Bilik lain cam tk leh pakai gytoo ! ..

Then that Akmal nudge me.. I thought it was the other one .. Haizz , I forgot to copy down his phone number .. I alrd gave him mine but even so , I don't think I'm able to reply to his msges or calls cause he live in Malaysia . ):

Oh yeah ,
I've just gave Shoot my number . Yeah , she's in Malaysia too . (:
Bayangkan , 2 tahun aku kwn nan dier baru skrg ader idea nk exchange number .. LOL .. Lembab siaa .. xD

Okeh .. I've got new books people .. :D
Just bought it .. Alamak , pokai lagi aku .
Yeah , it's a waste cause the price in Malaysian Ringgit is 1690 and she sold it at $11++ . So , dier cekik untung jer .. -.-
But whatever . Asked from my aunt , busy plak dier .. And besides , I don't have the time to go to her place . I wanna ask school peeps .. Like I said , they don't notice me .. So amaciaaamm ?
OR , most people don't have it .. -.-

Okeh la kan , gerek jgk lah (:

Aku ni cume berbullshitting jer kat sini . Aku suro org jwb qns aku yg kat previous post .. Hmm , hampehh .. Sume wat dek ..

Lantak korang la kan (:
Ciaos ~
-sHd-

2009-08-31T06:17:00.002+08:00

Have you ever wonder

What if one day
The person you truly loves
Die in front of you ?
If you know that's gonna happen
Would you go up to them
And tell them
How much you love them ?
Would you have
The guts to do that ?
What if the person who's gonna leave you
Is someone who loves you the most
Someone who's willing to die for you
Someone who already suffered much more than you do ?
What if that's their last moment
Would you still tell them
I Love You
Like how you've ever promised them ?
What if the dying person
Is me ? ..

If you don't mind , please answer the question .

Okay , I skipped school today . You see , I onlined early in the morning . Lately , I've been skipping school . Oh yeah , guess what , I've already skipped on Friday (280809) & today , (310809) .. How cool is that ? LOL !

Actually , I don't have the mood to go to school .. Since that someone's not coming today .. So I don't see a point for me coming cause I don't gain anything in class . I've been slacking . Just imagine , almost every lesson , I'll be with a friend of mine , & we're gonna crap upside down , inside out and laugh like there's no tomorrow . So , what am I gonna hear , or learn ?
And besides , if I'm not talking , I may not bring books , or I'm just gonna read my novels , sleep , slack or pretending to hear ...

The reason why I came to school was to see that someone .. Well , since that someone ain't coming today , so I guess I wanna stay home . (:
Aku tau la , korang mesti pikir thinking aku cetek .. But whatever . Aku tk nk waste time dok kat klaz cam bodow abeh tk gain ape2 .. (:
& YeAH , WE're gonna have teacher's day celebration today . Hmm ... ANother boring day will come & go ....

-sHd-

2009-08-30T00:43:00.003+08:00

Helloh ! ~:D

Oh wow . Seriously , today's gerek ! :D
Okay , I helped dad paint the house today .. & Our house is white and red ! Hooray , pikir pe , National Day ? LOL !
kk ,

SO I locked all my homeworks in my room & didn't tell my dad I've hmwk , so that I could help him . (; Today , mum cooks something gerek ! :D
Gerek to the max I tell ya ! :D

Wait , that's not why I'm here for .. :D LOL ..
oKAY , I've just checked my Facebook ..

Dier reply la !!! :D Alamak , gerek sehh! :D
Haha , you don't have to know who ! ;D
Cheychey , you'll know it soon aites ! (:

&& Apart from all this gerek-ness , something still bothers me ..

1) UC Problems .
2) Silent Phone - I need someone to crap with me again ):
3) Homework
4) New novels
5) Meeting up with him again . :D

& I felt bad that I skipped school yesterday , NOT ! :D

Andand budak France HOT LA ! :D
I don't wanna go Thailand , I wanna go France . ! :D

For once I beg you
Please don't erase the smile
Off my face .
Return what you've stole
From me ...
Please ..
-sHd-

Call me when it's my time . (:

2009-08-29T00:18:00.002+08:00

Heyloh . Seriously , I'm shocked . Let me get the picture in your head ..
o.0
Okeh , i knoe it's random . I'm just trying to cheer myself up .
Just came back from Zaf's blog . I read her post and she mentioned that UC is falling apart . I was like , omg , cause I thought everything was A-OKay .

And I thought of posting something else here ... But seems that UC is having a prob , I guess I'll post it somewhere else or maybe later on .

Babes / Readers / Peeps / FRIENDS , I'll always be here if you guys need any help . You can always call , text or mail me .. I'm always gonna be here ... But , I won't be here if I can no longer wake up from the deep sleep to breathe again . (:
Only then , I guess it gonna left goodbyes & memories . (:

So now , it's better if you guys make a full use of your life to live a happy & relaxing life before it's too late . (:
Chiil , forgive & forget .. And you'll be great ! :)

-sHd-

2009-08-28T13:43:00.002+08:00

Heylloh ~ : D

Okeh lah kan nari . Weather baek2 cam ni , aku melepak kat rmh .
So peeps , I skipped school today . Well , everyone tried waking me up today .. I feel it , but just can't wake up . Haha , ngantok giler beb .

So , woke up at 11.20 , cam terdgr org panggil aku gytoo kan . So woke up and can't sleep . Bathe and switch on the comp . I thought on switching on the comp before I went to the bathroom , but I'm afraid daddy scold me for switching it on while I'm away ... Haha , pe tk nye , aku kalau mandi stengah jam tk per .. Ni satu jam ..

So after that , switch on comp & meragam plak dier .. No internet connection . Fix it and here I am . :D

Oh yeah , I was on Facebook justnow and a friend of mine took a quiz 'Who loves you the most ? ' and the answer is S ! So he asked me ..

D : Ehk , kau suke aku ehk ? :D
S : Uhh ? Pe kau bual ?
D explains everything .
S : Kau jgn nk mepek lah ehk .. -.-
D : Ala , da suke tu ngaku je lah . Nk bohong2 lagi !
S : Suke hati aku la kan , apasal ? Jealous ka pa , mat ?
& He went offline ..

Siak ajer itu anak . xD LOL .. Mentang2 answer dier S , aku jgk perh ? -.-
Okeh la kan , the first time I met him , I was wearing my White Baju Kurung with highlighted hair . So time tu , ader la makcik aku nye anak kawin ka per kan , so aku ngan adek aku ni , maen cam .

Da tu , si mamat ni ngan adek dier .. Fuyoo , cam mintak tempeleng gytoo kan . They asked my bro & me to help my aunt carry stuff .. Pikir pe ? ..
So I almost punched him .. Hah , but can't cause mom's staring at me . LOL !

So after that , my bro & his bro , became friends . Biaser la kan , bdk2 kecik .. LOL ! Then his adek asked for my number cause he said he wanna keep contact with my bro . So bagy jer lah ..

Then , when we wanna went home , ard 10 ++ , someone text me saying ..
" Hey , ni D***** , abg H***** . Thanks sebab bagy no. ehk . (: " & aku da malas nk lyn just say
" Oh okay . "

And he text me saying I keep on staring at him and asked what for blahblahblah .. Then mintak aku st8 .. LOL ! Giler ke pe , mat ? Aku baru kenal kau lah . LOL !
But seriously , that time I was gedeboosh-ing with a friend of mine .. LOL , so yeah .

Then he called and we're otp . But whatever .. Da tengah gedeboosh kan , so he's here .:D
Then now , he keep on bugging me saying I love him ?!
Nmpk sah sgt desperate ! :D

-sHd-

2009-08-27T23:12:00.002+08:00

Helloh !~ :D

Just bored okeh , okeh ? :D
Uhh , currently bored & just updating my blog with rubbish .
Ye lah , da sah bored kan .. Pe2 pon jadi lah , drpd blog ku mati . xD

OKeh , okeh .
Bye ~

-sHd-

2009-08-26T21:43:00.003+08:00

HEYLOH ~ :D

Okeh , basically , today's great . Seriously great ! :D
I was with Reshma the whole day & after school , WE MANAGE TO COMPLETE OUR PROJECT ! :D wohooooo !!!!!! .........

Okay ...

Well , I don't know why I'm just so happy today . (:
I've alrd finish reading a book I borrowed from a friend . Hell yeah , it tooks me a long time ryt ? Well , before that , I grab my Golden Chance to buy a book . So before I read the book I borrowed from my friend , I read the book that I bought first . (:
So , just finish reading that book ..
Oh yeah , thanks again to Reshma for reminding me ..

Yknow , I almost forgot to take my letter , which was supposed to work as my bookmark ,.. Hah , da jiwang smacam siaa , so , tk nk lh kan maen2 gini lg . (:

So before I returned , Reshma call and says " Hey shud , he's there . Go return it ! . And oh yeah , don't forget the letter ... " with smile on her face .. -.-

So took it out and return . Well , now currently strunggling to get a book but can't .. -.-
Da tk offer , tkkan nk mintak ... Tk reti malu peh ? LOL !.
So , tk perh lah kan .. (: Tk der buku , tk mati .
(;

My uncle just came 2 hours ago . He bought a VCD - BOHSIA - okeh lah kan , crite rated sia ! xD
So whatever ...

When I read the title , cam terase gytoo ...
Hah , I was once labelled as that by one Mat Rempit in Malaysia ..
LOL , Crite lame lah .. . haha ..

Okeh dah , peopleyss , aku nk tido . Goodnyt . (:

Kan sudah ku bilang
Hari ni aku happy . :D

-sHd-

2009-08-25T18:35:00.004+08:00

OhmygodOhmygodOhmygod ! :D
Guess how happy I am now ! :D

Yknow , I just came back from GP to print out my Lit Assignment and I saw this cute Chinese girl dancing around in front of the lift . I thought she's alone and yeah , so I go to her and when I was about to talk to her , someone say something and I was stunned . I looked up and guess who I saw .. ;)

This guy .. I don't know what's our relationship . But whatever .. Ahh .. So the girl was about to talk the same lift but I guess he stopped her .. Aww .. ):
So I just lay on one corner and when the lift door is closed , he walk towards the lift mirror and ahhh ... My god .. I wanted to smile , but I can't .. Haha . xD
His eyes are the most adorable thing to look at ! :D

LOL ! xD
Tk per lah , stakat ber-crushing , ape salahnye ? Same jgk ngan si bdk H tu kan . :D LOL !

Okay , basically , today I'm sick .
After assembly , I felt like vomititng .. But yeah , guess I did .
Well , I almost vomit when I walked out of the ladies and almost bumped into someone . Whoever that person is , I'm sorry . My vision is blur that time and yeah , I swayed a little .. ~

-sHd-

2009-08-23T22:27:00.004+08:00

Hey .. Thank you for everything , dear Love .
You've hide everything , yes , every single truth from me . I really appreciate it ! Seriously , I do .
Don't worry , you're not hurting me .. Even if you are , what's the difference cause you don't care .

So today's slightly gerek .
Mum cooked Laksa Kerang . Both me & mom went to JP justnow to buy mom's new phone . Yeah , she got herself LG Viewty touchscreen phone . No , i'm not jealous .. Except for the part of her new SIM number ! You know , she got herself a student plan under my name and had to pay $25 plus , UNLIMITED SMS ! -.-
I want it ! But all thanks to bro who've made me suffer my using my card & phone to surf net and buy credits for games .. When I was in P4 , my phone bill was $300 ! :D
How incredible .. Thanks yer abg ! Psl kau , aku kene . (:
siak . -.-

So , went window shopping and I don't know what's up with me , I bought one birthday cake . (: A chocolate mousse cake @ $18.80 . After that , thought of buying a novel cause I've finished reading the one I've bought but can't cause I didn't bring extra cash .. -.-
Yknow , I'm dying to save $500 right now ! And now that I've alrd got $250 , I feel so sad when I wanna take the money .. ):
So dramatic .. ~

Sheesh , my homework are not done yet . Yes , thanks to Sha for reminding me about homework . (:

Okay people , Goodbyes ~ :D
& I'll be updating my other blog .

Walau hanya duka
Yang menyelubungi jiwa
Aku redha
Jika ini dinamakan TAKDIR .

-sHd-

2009-08-22T13:34:00.002+08:00

Helloh ? Should I start with that ? ..
Uhh .. I'm just bored . Only today I get to use the comp , do my homework & finish the book I'm currently reading cause it's not mine .. -.-

Seriously .. Things have been shared with cDah . She was so mad with me for not listening to her advice . Well , it's not that I don't want . I want it but I just don't wanna know the truth ..

I just feel of giving up on life ..
Da la kan , aku ni org melayu lah , mkn blacan , tk payah nk ber-speaking2 lah kan :D

Okeh , da .. Otak aku da buntu ... Cume cDah jer yg dgr aku peh hal .
Bukan tk mo bilang kan .. Cume mase belom menentukan ...
Ntah esok luse , when everything's fine , korangkan tau ..
For now , bersiap sedia untuk kehilangan ...

-sHd-

2009-08-20T18:22:00.001+08:00

Hey ho ! :D
Okay , I'm just bored .
Well , guess I'm actually slacking in everything
especially Science . Well , I just can't actually explained why .

Oh gawd , I'm just bullshitting here to update .
Bye ~

-sHd-

2009-08-18T18:04:00.005+08:00

Okeh ! Helloh guys ! :D This pictures are taken on 150809 @ 1800 hours at WCP . On that day is the day whereby a guy pissed me off . So babes decided to go to watch DD at Geylang area , but I can't go . So , they all decided to go to WCP to 'relax our mind ' .

Well , Sha's with her KP , but too bad KP's picture is not in my phone memory . (:
& Shekyn's with her guy otp . Nmpknye , aku berseorangan lagi kan ? :D So , here's the picture ! :D

Here is otw to WCP , in bus 30 .

Sha eating her Chewy Junior and something happened .
During that time , my POP drink rolled towards the sea .
Aww , he loves the sea more than me . ):

Just some memories ! :D

I just don't know what she's doing , but yeah it's a
something ! (:

I'm trying to take my own pics and she's trying to
disturb . (:

Shekyn otp & Sha's waiting for her KP & we got bored . (:

OTW home . We pretended that we're mad at Sha
and we didn't talk to her ! LOL , just to make both Sha &
KP closer .. :D We're sitting @ the back and both of them
are 5 (?) seats infront of us .

Shekyn's sunset pic . I don't like here , it's better if it's somewhere
near the sea , looks nice , relaxing & romantic . (:

So that's all , goodbye ! :D
-sHd-

2009-08-16T21:17:00.002+08:00

Seriously , I'm just pissed off with many people nowadays . Starting from Friday . I forgot to bring my file which have all my notes inside so during lesson , I was punished for not having the materials with me . Yeah , fair enough .
But what's the reason to make me copy the thing for 5 times ? If the punishments were to asked me to do extra homework , I'm fine with it , but this ? Totally not !

Another reason is that my Sci project group member is seriously getting on my nerves . This pantat decide things without discussing . Yeah , I do admit that I said yes to the part whereby he change one of our group member with the other guy and also change what we're about to do . Cause he did it first and then tell me , so what else I can do ?

But then , he didn't split up the work . I mean , he didn't tell us all what we're suppose to do , which part . He just told us to do research and bring stuff . So I was like , ' huh ? ' ..
Seriously ...

After that , my mum was mad at me . She was like if you're mad at your friend , don't vent your anger on us ! I was like ' wtf ' . Since when I show attitude to everyone at home ?
I just don't wanna talk to anyone that time cause I'm just stressed out ! That's all ! She also said I'm mad at some small problems . -.-
Seriously , if this project work shit doesn't have to do with me , even though I'm part of it , I don't give a fuck !

My lil'bro was jumping round the house and it noise he made is just damn irritating . I scolded him . So he went to my mum and ask why am I so angry . My mum told him ' You don't asked me ! Everything I said is all wrong to her ! Don't asked me ! ! ' I can feel my hands were shivering . If she's my sister , she'll definately get her face punched . But unfortunately , she's my mum . ...

And that penis-less guy keep on texting me and send me stuff which I don't give a damn anymore on MSN .. -.- , SERIOUSLY , if one more time he wanna 'joke' around to make things ' A WHOLE LOT BETTER ' , I'll definately crush his face !

-sHd-

2009-08-12T21:13:00.004+08:00

Tomorrow , it's alrd my 6-months heartache & I'm still not over it .
Time flies very fast ... ):
& I missed those times ,
together with you ..

Okeh people ! :D
As I've alrd promised my 'dear' Abg Bitch ,
Let me just brief you with what happens today during Geog lesson aites ! (:

Otw back to class , Izz asked me " Pe kau nye question untuk Geog? " & I just said Thailand cause my question is about it .. Besides , I don't think I have to say the whole thing ( Wet Rice Cultivation In Thailand cause the whole class is now learning bout WRC ) . So he asked if I'm sick and my Bang Bitch said yes on my behalf , which I don't want to . So , he asked what I've 'experienced' in Thailand ? -.-

So , here's the actual post !:D
Enjoy :...
(Blue - Abg Bitch ) , (Red- Shud)

Living In A Mansion

** Playing Tic Tac Toe*

Living in a mansion <-- GILER ! :P
Ini bukan giler kak , ni RELIA - Kap -> bahase thailand
Ouh ...
** Drawing girl's face with beard & moustache - Thailand*
** Drawing girl's face - S'pore*

ALIFF ..
Kau gile ! =)
Da dapat exp mase gy Thailand ? =P

**Point arrow to 'kau gile' * Is this english ? excuse mehh ..
**Point arrow to ' mehh' * Meh is not english !
How u noe ?!

BTOL TUU !
I don't know Malay ...
Really ? My mother ask me to buy egg !
Afakufu takfak pafahamfam pefe kaufau bufualfal ...
Jafanganfan befedekfek ! Clayfay marfarblefle befetolfol !
Pe kau bual ?
Jangan bedek , claymarble btol !

Wat tokin yu men ?
eye thing eye dawn no yu !

** write Japanese word , which I don't know what I asked *
#@9
** Write something which looks like angry face & spoon on fire *
???
I ask :
** Repeat the Japanese words again *
** Some symbol which represents as indian handwriting *
** One , Two , Three in Chinese symbols (?) **

My name wang
not wang
but wang !

Moshimoshi
** Draw cute smiley face *
But here's a fact ! I'm so proud of myself ! My fridge weigh heavier than me !

Konichiwa ?
Koxxx chihuahua ? kt thai bnyk !

** Ask : What's koxxx ? *
Konek chihuahua ? kt thai bnyk !

TAK NAK ......
Kau nak ?

Nak ! Aku beli 50 cents yg goreng !
Sedap ?
Sebenarnye kt canteen ade jual yg chicken seaweed
Ouh ... Sedap tak ?
Sedaplicious ! Try !
NO ! Tak halal .

*Moving on messenger 9.0 *

Wang pernah mkn asl tu size dier cm nk koyakkan mak dier nye baju
Aku ngendap dier ehk ? Sebab tu kau tau !!!..
Mmg ! aku pasang cctv
C.C.T.V.
curik-curik tgok "van" -> size wang

ohmygay !.. Mmg sah yg kau tk sebaik mana .. !!
ceriternye cm gini . aku mengendap v . mariam , dia yg ajar aku .
Ouh .. aku suspek v.m ader koxxx sbb dier mkn koxxx chihuahua ..
CMNE KAU TAU ? MENGENDAP ?
Aku tnye kau . Kau ckp da prnh ngendap dier ..
da , dier jemput aku msok
Da try da ? Best ?
Tk . Aku gorengkan telor dgn cheese yg dier simpan da 5 years .

Ouh...
BUKAN ! Kapal
Ah'ah
eh ? sejak biler ader duit dlm bank ?
tak mase tu ... [dotdotdot].
Maser 2 . all ?

** playing tic tac toe *
** accidentally tear the paper *

END ~

So , do u find our conv is very interesting ? :D
-sHd-

2009-08-11T16:09:00.003+08:00

Okeh okeh ~ :D
Today is special ! Let us present the pictures to talk ! :D

On Sunday . Getting ready to go to Jusco :D ~

Before getting ready ..

On Sunday . In the car OTW to my cuzz's house .

My dad amek "oxygen" jab .

Adekku cam mat .-.-

At Jusco . :D Abg aku muka setan .. :X

Lepak-ing after mkn . :D Currently waiting for 2nd round ! :D

Peek-Ak-Book ! :D I didn't see you ! :D

Bro(s) & Keira . :D Cute kan dier !:D Tengoklah sape cuzz dier ! ;D

OKEH , let's give them a round of applause ! :D
Thank You & Have a nice day .
Goodbye ~

-sHd-

2009-08-10T21:50:00.002+08:00

Hello Loves ~ :D

Today's gerek ! :D

OKay , firstly in the morning , I was freezing cause dad switch on the air-cond at max ! So woke up at 12 pm and switch on the comp first . So use the comp to transfer file to my thumbdrive .
At 1 .30 pm , I bathe and yeah , spend ard 1 hr in the bathroom . :D

So after change and get dress , all went out at 2 . 15 pm . Drive to the Joo Koon ( ? ) MRT station to fetch my aunt . Then , all of us go to my cousin's house for her children's b'dae party ! :D

Well , since I didn't eat , I had my stomachache . So reach my cuz's house at Clementi , I went lepak-ing with my bro . So we're playing with this toy (?) and of course , her children ! :D So cutee ! :D

After that , went makan . As usual , I ate 2 plates . :D Haha , hungry giler lah kan ? :D
Lagipon mknan free . Tak makan = mknan mayb terbuang . Tak baik buang2 mknan . :D Kalau bende tu da free , kebas jer . Saper malu , dier rugi ! :D hAHAHA . xD

So at 5 plus , sms-ed Haikal and I just got to know that it's his b'dae today ! :D Haha .. I'm older than him . Amin . LOL !
So wished him happy b'dae and he's demanding for present ! Phuie arh ! Bilang last min , abeh nak present , tk malu betul ni ! :D HAHA ..

At 6 plus , went to NTUC at Taman Jurong . Dad was pissed off with everyone after my parents went shopping for toiletries . So , after that , everyone is emo-ing . Then he drove to Mr Teh Tarik at idk where . So everyone eat again cause mom didn't cook at home .

After we finish our meal , went to CK to buy idk what thing again and then drove back home . At 8.30 pm , followed my parents . Dad drop me off at GP while both of 'em went to idk where . I print my worksheet and texted Haikal .

I told dad I'm gonna be late , that's why he leave me there ! :D After that , went window shopping and layan diri ngan phone . At 9 , called dad and he picked me up . At 10 pm , he went out again with lil'bro to change his vehicle . He's going to work tonight , so yeah ..

Until then , Haikal asked me how to attract a girl's attention .. LOL ! xD

Okay , Good Luck ehk . :D
Hope that girl knows how you feel and last long , tu pon kalau korang st8 . ;)

-sHd-

2009-08-09T23:22:00.002+08:00

Heylohh ~ :D

Today's a bliss !
Dad didn't work today and we all went to Malaysia . Actually , alrd planned ystd . We'd go back to Malaysia and slept there till Mon but my cuzzie invited me for her child birthday party . So , dad cancelled it . -.-

Today , Dad drives us to Jusco at Bukit Indah and we went lepak-ing there . Went to BBQ Chicken for lunch . Since I woke up at 12 today , I had stomach ache for not having breakfast .. LOL , Dad was abit panicked just now . Haha ..

So I ate alot today , believe me , I ate 2 rounds . :D
Haha , then bro treat me ice-cream . Yeah , nice ! :D After that , went shopping with everyone . I went to look for alot of creams today . All sorts of creams . Hair , skin ...
Dad was pissed off with me for wasting time .

After shopping , went to this book shop and bought a novel secretly . Well , I was with mum & bro . My lil'bro and dad went to the parking lot to put all the stuff we bought inside . So rushed to the bookshop and bought this novel . Only cost RM 18 ..

So after that , I hide my book in my tee . Luckily I was wearing my A7X tee , so manage to hide in inside . Dad was just too tired to notice . So went shopping for bed sheet and curtains .
So drive home and dad was caught .
BUSTED !

Okay , it actually went like this .
Dad bought his cigarettes . He usually buys Pallmall but then now change cause of sore throat ? .. So he didn't know that the customs only allowed us to bring in not more than 20 . Dad have 24 , so he's caught . The Sargent , how ever you spell it , told him he can go , but don't do it again , but the other officer , whose rank is lower than Sargent , told my dad to go in the office and tell them .. Dad was pissed off and he talked back . YadaaYadaaYadaa , things solved . :D

Reached home @ 10 pm and ate sushi . Before we left Jusco , bro treat all of us sushi . So we bought 19 sushi's and ate it at home . I'm currently tired , sleepy , full & happy . I just wanted to go to bed now but can't . Have to wait till dad goes off to work at 12.30 am . Mum's sick , so I have to take over . Plus , I wanna read the book I borrowed from my friend . Left 10 more chapters to finish . Then , I wanna start reading the book I borrowed from the school lib and read the book I just bought ! The lady in the school lib told me there's gonna be new novels coming up , so that's why I'm finishing up all the books I have now ! :D

Okay loves , Goodbye ~ :D
I'm off to my room .

& Oh yeah , I met this hottie in Jusco . :D
Gawd , damn hot I tell ya ! :D
He stares at me while I'm laughing and joking around with my bros . At first I thought he's staring at people behind me but then there's no one around except me and bros . Could it be that he's staring at my BRO ?! Haha .. Definitely not .

SO when bro left , I was there alone . He came up to be , holding his phone and type down his phone number .. and says , 'Can I have your number ? If can't , just call me tonight . '
I ignored him but then he turn to look at me and ask about it . I was like , speechless .
And I asked ' Kau giler ? Salah orang ehk ? ' and he says No and then he gave me his phone number . I still have it , but not gonna call . (:
Aku tak nak cari nahas oii ! :D

Plus , I still have this guy whom I needa settle my probs with .
Few years back , when we're together , I cheated him . So he's mad at me . He bought for me alot of stuff , so now I feel guilty .
Okay , dah . Grandmother story ku da bis . Bye !:D

-sHd-

2009-08-08T19:47:00.002+08:00

Ahhh ...

I wanna confess alrd . Seriously ..
It's bugging me . I wanna strt a new life . Fresh , new one . I don't wanna think about what ever happened to me all this years .

This up-down-left-right-front-back life I own started since I was 10 , and I guess all began with me .. If only time could be turn back , I wish I don't do it . I seriously wished all this things never happened ..

I wish I didn't buy a computer , have an internet connection , phone , know MCR , influenced people , have attitude problem , defiency , makes a confession to anyone , won't neglect friends I used to have ...

If only I didn't do all this things , life would be heaven . Seriously ,
I guess this time is different . I wanna confess to those people directly .. No more through SMS-es , phone calls , letter , mail ...
I wanna confess to those who have something gotta do with my life . I wanna confess to those whom I confessed before .

Let's be clear . I don't wanna keep this anymore .

-sHd-

2009-08-07T12:02:00.002+08:00

Heylost . ! :D

Okay , today's celebration HANCORR ! :D
Actually , the school should make the celebration in the courtyard and then we'll have buffet or party in the hall ! -.-

Okay , here's actually what I think ..

For courtyard ,
we'll have marching band , NCDCC and other uniform groups presenting , sing-along National Day songs ... Everyone have to stand , and you know , participate .
And , we're allowed to wear red shirt and white pants / shorts / skirts . -.-
So , if let say school is afraid that outsiders will come in the school , ystd , give out a 'special pass' with school logo and their names on . So whenever they pass the guard house , they have to show the pass . And , someone will be there ticking their names ! -.-

For hall ,
We're gonna have buffet , ballons , banners , a mini concert , like ... Before the National Day , like one month before , they should held up talentimes audition .. So during National Day , they'll perform . Blast out music and dance ! :D That'll be great !

But I don't know who's idea for this celebration .. It seems dull , boring & simply full of rules . Yknow , teachers should chillax and have some fun being wild ! Wild as in , don't bother abt school rules ...

Like , we can stand , we can sit , we can talk ...
But if someone were to suggest to smoke or escape school , then , they'll be severely punished ! -.-

Haha . xD
If we have that kind of celebration , I'm sure many would love to come for it ! :D

-sHd-

2009-08-06T16:18:00.002+08:00

Hey Hey Hey .. :D

Okay , basically , the UC probs we have just settled ! :D
Okay , I scolded cDah babe ystd cause of something . So we didn't talk . Today , I do wanna apologise but she said it first .. So , we're fine & strted talking abt that HN guy .. :D
That's what I love her for ! .. -Gossipping !-

Haha , okeh ..
So , today , I'm bored . I almost finish reading the book I borrowed from my friend .. -.- && Izz keep in saying ' title buku kwn kau tu pelik arh ! Kau di dalam hati , hati saper ? ' LOL ! xD
& MY brader-giler [ClarkDaunz] & Izz , makes a perfect match ! :D LOL !

Okay , today during Art lesson , our teacher told us ' before you do shading , warm up first ' .. She meant by relaxing but this Brader Giler of mine , tghr with Izz said ' warm up ?' and strted warming up .. Y'know , like how you warm yourself up before PE ! :D

LOL ! The great thing is that , they do the same thing , without planning ! :D LOL ! xD
Art lesson is always the best ! :D Because all the people who sit tghr with me & Sha are all Kaki Gerekz . :D

YadaaYadaaYadaa .. :D
Today's gerek ! :D
Just a waste that Sha didn't come today .. ):
Get well soon babe !:D

-sHd-

2009-08-04T20:00:00.002+08:00

Sayang - Sayang
Cinta - Cinta ..

Today is gerek ! :D
Okay , went to Lal's house today after school , well , not directly since everyone have something to attend . So yeah , around 3.30 pm , went to Lal's house and yeah , told my dad I'm gonna do project . (;

So reach her house , I forgot she have cats ! -.-
So whatever , since she can't keep it in a room . Well , even if she can , I can't cause y'know . You don't like to be locked up in a room .. -.- So yeah ..
Bearing it .. LOL !

At 3.40 pm , switched on movie , Jangan Tegur , even though I've watched that so-hilarious-movie 2 times . !:D Laughing like hell . Then use her lappy and check my MSN .. So yadayadayada , we turn her house upside-down .

Well , Za & I were dancing in the hall , in front of the mirror , saying that this dance is dedicated to mr BONCET , even though he's not around . (:
After a while , Shekz joined us . We're ... Uhh , you know . :D Menjadi gilerr . :D
So yeah ..

After that , we all went home . Nat accompany me go GP to take a brochure abt Freshlook contacts . My cousins having promotions . 1 box is $ 30 (??) , 2 boxes is $ 50 . :D But the casing , eye drop and solutions is not included .. So there's no brochures but we just take a look at the colors 1 :D
I wanna buy Hazel , Pure Hazel & Brown ! :D Like hell .. :D

Hah , siakz ..

So after that , we went home .. YadaaYadaaaYadaaa .. :D
Byebyez . (:

Oh yeah , 2nd blog updated . (: View & tag yaww ! :D

-sHd-

2009-08-02T00:06:00.002+08:00

Seriously la ehk , I'm totally effed up .
Recently , I have all this weird feelings coming up to me at one time . Then now , my bro is cleaning the house , LATE AT NIGHT , just because Dad's not home .. -.-

I wanna sleep . And yes , might be still early for him . But he doesn't even know that I slept 1 am everyday and woke up at 4 am [or sometimes early] , just to do homework and other stuff .. -.-
It's not just one day , but ONE WEEK ..-.-

My head hurts alot . Now , I need my rest , and he's here cleaning .
Then I was viewing my tagb and there's this girl , Myra , whom I don't know who she is , asking me to link her . Yeah , already linked & viewed . I don't know who she is & I called bro to ask if he knows her and he said ' I don't know ' , with that I-don't-give-a-damn look , WITHOUT EVEN LOOKING ! -.-

After like what , a week of not able to online and use the comp , only today I manage to surf the net ! He's sitting here all day watching some dumb anime when he have revision to do for his N-Level.. -.-

Yesterday he told me , ' Ehk , aku tkot arh . N-lvl cpt siak ! Lagi sebulan lebih jer sial ! ' with that panic look on his face but guess what , he's not even proving it ! -.- He didn't even take note of my maths notebook he used for his revision ! -.-

Now , when I'm using the comp & he's cleaning the house , he called me and say ' Kau tolong aku kemas , aku nak gy toilet arh ' .. It's not the first time .. -.- He can always continue it later or ' take my own time' .. -.-

Seriously ! Everytime I wanna do something , he'll asked me to do HIS STUFF ! -.-
And yes , today ,
SMS-ED those people who sms-ed me yesterday telling me " Hey , if you need help , I'm here for you babe . Just cheer up . " But guess what , all those words are just lies !
I sms-ed them , they didn't even reply . From morning till night .
I decided to call them and they say , ' hey , I'm sorry . Can't talk now , busy ' and just hung up ! -.-

I online now , and then they appear offline . I sent offline msg , they online back and was like ' Hey yeah , waddup ? '
I asked them abt the msg , they told me , ' Hey , I gtg lah . bye ' .. -.-
I appeared offline .. And they online back , writing in their PM box , ' such a nuisance ' -.-

Is this how you call friends , bitch ? ..
-sHd-

2009-07-31T18:04:00.003+08:00

Backmasking ! Coolness ..
Okay , view this :
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A0jrRlqGaL0&feature=related

That's MCR - Welcome to the black parade song being played backwards . Seriously ..
You can hear he said :

"Put your body in a fire ."
"Put your body in a locker"
"The spheres in your arm"
"The dead arose . "
"I see your Sundays hurt you "
"Mine all over "
"I slay the .... " [....] idk whats that .. LOL ! xD
"And in the end , there's as if , no spheres . The man as evil . As far as Im is , they'll say . "
And then blahblahblahblah ..... Haha ! xD

Haha .. Sound so evil .. LOL ! xD
Whatever . This vid makes my day . But the comments are pissing me off .. -.-
& Oh yeah , guess I've moodswings . Whatever . Guys , i'm sorry ..

Goodbyes ~

-sHd-

2009-07-29T22:55:00.002+08:00

I don't know what's up with me ..
Yes , Hi .

Lately I've been feeling down .. Mood Swings..
This don't really happen to me but I don't why now it does ..
You see .. My english are all upside-down ..

I get irritated easily .
And besides that , I finally manage to accept the fact that I actually regard ______ as a best friend . YES ! Best friend ! But then this morning , she told me that she's gonna change school next year cause that's what her parents want ! I was like , wtf . Last year , 2 best friends change school and ended our friendship . Now , there's one more who's gonna change school ?

I met friends who just come and go & that's for sure . I'm 100% sure of it ! Cause you see , when I'm flooded with all my problems , none actually come to asked 'Hey , are you alright ? ' or 'Hey , chill . I'm here for you ' and all those shits , yknow ..

They say What goes around , comes around but guess what , I've been there for almost all of my friends who actually need a shoulder to cry on when they have problems . I'm there for them . But when it's my turn , one by one , fade away .. Reason is because that they're busy ! .. Hey , it's not like as if THEY'RE the only one who's busy .. Evry human is busy ! I'm busy too !
But still , I have time for you . But where were you at times I need you ? Were you there for me like how I used to be there for you ?

Seriously , life's not fair . I wonder why none actually bothers ... Seriously .. Telling you the truth , it hurts ! Yes , like hell .. -.-

If you were in my shoes , you'll know how I feel ...

Yeah ...
Don't bother reading / tagging cause you know what ? The only thing you'll write in my tb is "Hey babe , tagged ! " or " tagged ! :D " blahblahblah ...... Or sometimes , those hypocrites will be like ' Hey , are you alryt ? Yknow , I'm always here if you need me ..' -.- Seriously ! The next day come .. I talk to you , it's equal to me talking to a plain hard wall who just can't talk .. Or even , in between what I'm saying , you'll just walk off or talk to your friends or just ignore me .. -.-
You call me friend .. Think ! Do you treat me like one ? Or am I just a plain stranger to you who'll just come & go ... ?

-sHd-

2009-07-27T18:46:00.002+08:00

Hello . Let's make it as apathetic as possible okay ?

I went to school today . I'm fine but not entirely .
270709 , a day I won't forget ! Starting from 12am , I'm already crying .
My swollen left eye = tears + dust + rubbing + infection - medicine .

My dad is sick . Last night , he went to work . I sent him to the door . He's sweating with a pale face . I told him not to go . But he insisted . He left , everyone slept , except me . In my room , stared at the clock . Close my eyes & I heard car crash . Screaming . Whispers of someone crying . I saw my dad , eyes shut . No heart beat . Dead .

I open my eyes . Sat . Rub my face . Prayed in my heart . Tears falling . Mind in a mess . Look around . Mom's sleeping .

Went back to my room . Stared at the clock . Can't stop crying . One hour crying alone . Gotta feeling either me or dad won't able to see the sun today . Won't able to breathe . Won't able to move or talk . Do nothing except for lying still . Dead .

Closed my eyes . Saw myself all wrapped up in white . Pale face . Can't move . Everyone's crying . I'm dead .

Open my eyes . Cried . Force to stop . Force not to make a sound . Hurt my heart . Hurt my chest . Unable to sleep . Prayed and tell myself ' If I'm unable to breathe today , I accept . But if it's not my time , save everyone from harm & 'bad' disturbance . '

Slept at 1++ am . Woke up at 6.15 am . Bathe and hurt my eyes . Swelling . Unable to talk . Talk to my mom , tears in my eyes . Decided to be quiet today . Went to school , didn't talk to anyone .

Science lesson , scolded by Mrs Chang . Not handing up homework . Suddenly cried . Hide myself . Not make any sound . Fadli & Aliff talk to me . I felt irritated . Talk for a while and ignored them .

English was next . Sha talked to me . I gave her the cold shoulder . Suddenly mad at her . Just answer what she asked and ignored the rest . She left . Rasyidah came and talk to me . I'm irritated . She just passed me her maths notebook cause I asked for it . She walked away . I kept quiet . Stared outside . Happy that I'm still able to breathe . Unable to smile . Reflect to myself for how long I didn't prayed . Almost 2 years .

Ms Intan came in . Scolded us for not respecting her today . After class , she wrote something on the board . Came up to her with intention to asked her to call me if I'm not in school to tell about homework . Instead , asked what she wrote . She answered , I walked away . Evryone left . She's in class with me . I came up to her . Mind all messed up . Decided to talk about my intention .

Instead , I told her everything I felt . Cried in front of her so suddenly . She's shocked . Gave me chair and asked me to sit . I sat . Told her everything in between sobs . Hurt my chest badly . She calmed me down . I told her everything . My mind was suddenly empty .

She advised me . Supported me . I go back to my place . Take my Geography book . She left . I thanked her . I went to the Cafe' behind school lib to calm myself up . Cried and do Geog homework . Think about what happened in life recently . A teacher passed by . Stared at me . Made no attempt to hide or be quiet .

Recess end . I went to class put my books . Went to hall . Be quiet till the end of day .

I wonder ..

What if I'm unable to change myself before I die .. ?
What if my dad is no longer with us ?
Will anyone cry for me / him ?
Will anyone prayed for us ?
Will we be in your memory ?
Will you remember us ?
I'm just asking ...
Hoping to get an answer ..
Before my time actually calls for me ..

-sHd-

2009-07-24T09:37:00.002+08:00

Siak .
I went home today .
Well , my tempt today is like 37.7 !
So went down and check again , tempt reduce abit . But I have the flu symptoms so I were asked to sit at the foyer and wear a mask .. -.-

Blahblahblah .. I went home at 8 plus ..

My dad's sick , so I went home by myself . I thought I'm already fine , but hell no ! . :D
Okay , at least I'm at home now .

Oh yes ! I love my hair now . :D
I went to the salon like on 220709 and get my hair done . No , I didn't cut it cause I'm not able to .. -.-

I washed up and blow dry . When the lady is drying my hair , all the curled hair was stuck on the hair comb and my hair's fine right now ! :D Became much more smoother ! :D

If my dad haven't set the rule yet , I guess I've cut my hair . :D
This time , I wanna cut layered and spikes . :D But not the layered you guys see everytime .. This time , it's my own version ! :D
HAH ..

Okay .. My dad's sleeping right now and I'm in front of the comp .
Currently waiting for Haikal to online but then just remembered he went to school today .. -.-
Sheesh . Bored !

-sHd-

2009-07-23T19:10:00.002+08:00

Oh siak ..
I'm sick again .. -.-

Now my tempt rises to 38.0 deg .
Just now it's 39.0 deg .

I thought I'm fine alrd .. ! -.-

OKay ,
I don't know what's wrong but whatever .. I'm not gonna skip school cause I have this unable-to-postponed-science project ! .. My eyes were swollen again .. & I have trouble with my vision .
My left upper lid are swollen ! -.-

I did use the eye ointment thingy , but doesn't really reduce .. -.-
When I breathe , everything felt so hot .. LOL !
Seriously , but I'm fine .. I MEAN , I mean alright . No dizzy ..
But just that my tempt are so high ! :D

LOL !
Let's spend a day at the Sick Bay tmrw behbeyh ! :D
-Only after first period .. KAACHIINGGGGAAAAAAA ..~ :D

-sHd-

2009-07-22T14:07:00.002+08:00

Helloh Peopleeyys.. ! :D

I'm back ! :D
Okay , I'm fine now , feeling slightly better ! :D
I'll be going to school tomorrow ! :D

Woots ~
I missed school ! :D
Hah , okeh okeh ! :D

Sci proj . can't be postponed . I'm sick for the last 2 days , so how am I suppose to do ? -.-
Whatever .. I'm fine now ! :D

Reshma told me that Ms Wang finished the whole of chp 6 ! .. I was like wtf .. Started just like last week and now , they're done with it ! -.-

Okeh okeh lahh ..
I don't know what I wanna post today ..
I've got alot to talk to my babes / friends ! :D

Meet up soon peoples . ~:D

-sHd-

2009-07-21T22:59:00.002+08:00

AKU TAK RELA BARANG KU DIAMBIL !

PULANGKAN !! ...

Hanya kau yang tahu .
Pulangkan ...

Seluruh hidupmu tak akan aman
Jika milikku ada pada mu ...

-sHd-

2009-07-20T17:35:00.002+08:00

Oh gawd , I'm sick .
Okay , let's talk about my Friday Incident yeah !

On Friday , accompany my bro to [somewheresomewhere] and left home around 7.05 pm . Took bus 30 , 13 mins later and I fall down and hurt my ankle . Reach our destination , at 8.15 pm , I almost fall down again . Thanks to bro who manage to catch me .

On Wednesday , last Wed , I went to Gym with Za & I fall down . Told that alrd . So skip .

Saturday afternoon , my sibs and I clean the house and went to Malaysia . Our plan is to eat Durians but can't find any . So the next day , went to Jusco and ate at Black Canyon restaurant . I ate the Tom Yam soup , with 6 huge prawns in it ! :D Yeah , damn spicy but I love it ! :D
So while I was eating , my stomach hurts . CRAMPS ! So asked my mom to accompany me go to the washroom . Phew , not my day yet . So walk out and saw this shopping centre with cool outfits . Went window shopping and bahh , I almost fall down ..-.-

Walk back to the restaurant , finish my meal and then went shopping . I shopped for my bedrooms' new look ! :D

Paid everything and I went to play with my cousins . Walk back to the parking and down I go . I fall down again & my dad was like ' What's up with you ?!' .. So I stand up and my ankle still hurts . When I wanna went inside the car , I trip onto something and I almost fall down .. Thanks to my hero who manage to catch me for the 2nd time ..

Went back to Singapore at 12.05 am . Bathe and slept . This morning when I woke up , I sneezed like mad and my ankle hurts , damn lots ! So force myself to get up bathe and changed . My mom's not working today , she's sick too ..

At 8am , My bro went back home . He's tempt is 38.2 .. Mine was okay . Just that I vomitted and felt dizzy . Called my dad and he picked me up at 10++ , during recess time ..
Reach home , changed and slept .

Woke up justnow , can't get up . My head felt heavy . My ankle hurts . I vomitted , again for the 3rd time .

I don't know what's wrong but my bro does ..

Something about you that makes me can't see a thing .
My bro gave me advice .
Za gave me advice .
My mind was not in its place . That's why my body
is moving on its own and my mind was thinking of
something else ..

Just see , how pathetic I can't be ...

-sHd-

2009-07-17T16:58:00.002+08:00

EHK SIAKLAHH !!!!
Hot lah siol ! :D xD

Yeah , like hell , this guy here is damn hot ! :D Haha , one of my contact in ****** but we haven't communicated at all .. Well , I guess I did , but he didn't reply .. Right ? Wrong ? Can't recall .

Ohmyeffinggay .. Hawt ! :D But my H1N1 is wayyyyy hotter , but without his hair , he's not so hawt ! :D LOL ! Siakk .. :D

OKay girls , have fun staring at his pictures yeahh ! :D

& To the owner of the pic , if one day you came across this blog and saw your pictures , I apologised . You're just damn good looking so I decided to grab and post here .. No offence & No , I won't do anything bad . :D

-sHd-

2009-07-17T16:25:00.003+08:00

One family photo , at Vivo City . My bro , he's pretending to sleep .. -.-

Alrightyy then .. I'm feeling kinda better ? I guess ? I don't know .
OKay , next month , I'll celebrate my 6-months of heartache . (: On 13 Aug .. Anyone wanna join ? LOL !

Seriously , I don't know what else I wanna do . I mean like , oh nevermind . Just so you know that I don't really bother to post anymore cause I have my own reasons .

Whatever . I don't have the energy to whine again and again about friends cause I know that I don't have one ..

Nevermind , I still felt alright talking to myself (: .

Oh siak . I forgot why I'm actually here .. LOL ..
Okeh , tk perh .. I'll be back soon .. I guess .. (:

Ler's not think about you for today . If you have someone in mind , go ahead . I'm not stopping you . Being a friend to me is what I needed the most . -I guess-

-sHd-

2009-07-16T15:48:00.004+08:00

Wouldn't it be great , if my heart is as calm as this pond ?

Sigh . I don't know what else I have to do . Tell someone about it ? Simply not the good idea . Why can't I just move on and just get over it ? I'm jealous with all my friends cause they're able to move on an forget their past . But why can't I ? Just wanna let you know . This feeling , no matter what happened , is gonna seal in my heart . No matter how hard you try to help me throw it away , I'm sorry cause , this is my first love .

Yesterday was gerek ! :D Hang out with Za & Erni at the gym . Well , first plan was supposed to be hanging out with babes in the Library but they kinda pissed me off by saying ' maybe ' . -.- So I told them I'll meet them at 3.30 pm . So went back home with Za .
Reach home and bro said he wanna go gym . So yeah , sms-ed Za and we went to the gym . Oh yeah , something hilarious happened yesterday ! :D
I was on the track mill (?) , however you call/spell it .. I finished jogging there and usually I'll press stop and walk down but then , I was daydreaming and in split second when Za turn to look at me , she saw me lying on the floor (no , not dead yet ) and I sat and laugh so loud then people around me look at me . And now , my ass hurt ..LOL !

So at 5.30 pm , Erni came and Za have to go home cause that's her curfew . So intro both of them and Za went back h0me , leaving me and Erni behind ..-.- HAH ..

Erni & I , okay , wait . Aren't I suppose to call her Kak Erni cause she's the same age as my bro ? Oh okay ..
So Kak Erni & I just workout and we're crapping alot . Oh yeah , we challenged too ! :D But she's way better than me cause , I've been there for the past 1 hour ! -.-

At 7.15 pm , I bathe and in the toilet , both me & Kak Erni were splashing water at each other . Blame her for that cause she started it ! :D
At 7.30 pm , went back and both me & bro accompany Kak Erni home . On the way to the main entrance of the stadium , I saw 6 bats ! :D Yes people , 6 bats ! :D & Kak Erni & bro irritate me by saying that it's a giant butterfly / moth .. -.-

On the way home , my nike shoe was busted ..-.- But whatever . So then both me & bro took bus home and yeah , reached home around 8.30 pm .
Changed and do homework . Then Kak Erni sms-ed me asking for help . Around 9.30 pm , otp with her for one hour ..
It could've been longer but my phone batt is dead . -.-

SO slept at 11 pm yesterday and yeah , my ass still hurt ..

Now , I'm currently discussing Sci Proj with Izzul .. Sigh . I'm bored .

Biarlah aku menanti
Biarpun hati kian merintih
Akan tetap aku
Menyayangi ...

-sHd-

2009-07-15T22:34:00.002+08:00

Heys ..

Can I just say , I missed & still love you ?
This feeling , is killing me ..

Been with me for almost 6 months & I'm dying .
I want you to know .. But I don't wanna stop
what you're trying to achieve .

If you know , just remains as friends . I wanted
to be your friend , if you're unable to have the
same feeling like I do .
If you find me very weird , I'm sorry .
I've not mixed with people and been hiding my
feelings for almost 2 years . I don't know how
to make friends anymore . If you're willing to
be my friend , just don't ignore me anymore .
Cause it's killing me ..
& I'm sorry if this post hurts you / anyone ..

Goodbye ~

-sHd-

2009-07-14T21:41:00.002+08:00

Somehow , I wished I'm outta this prison , which locked my soul . I don't understand the word life anymore . What does it actually means ?

I thought I'm the only one who's feeling down today .. But in fact , I've just found someone , who is having the same feeling as me . She called & cried . I was stunned cause all I need is just a SMS reply ..

That 'prison' , has locked my soul for almost 2 years . I suddenly don't know how to make friends anymore , seriously . I don't know how to socialize with people anymore . All I need is , someone who truly understands me . Who'll give me the strength ... Who have faith in me ..

I lost someone close to me . I lost a friend . In fact , FRIENDS . I lost my Uncle . I lost myself . I lost the touch of my ****** . I missed yesterday . Where by , I managed to talk to all my friends . Where by , I managed to see him outside Art Room . I managed to do / see things I love . But in just split seconds , everything's gone .

I believe this , you do good deeds to people , same thing will happen to you . But now I guess , it's nothing but just a plain Bullshit .

My babes need listening ear . I'm here for them . But then I'm forgotten .

My babes need a shoulder to cry on . I'm still here . But again , I'm forgotten .

My babes need someone to comfort them . I all theirs . But still , I'm forgotten .

My babes need someone to understand the inner side of them . I'm willing to put aside my feelings . But as usual , I'll be forgotten .

Now that I need someone to be with me , by my side . Through my thick & thins , but is there anyone for me ? I spared my heart & brains for your problems . But have you ever thought about it ?

I ignored people who calledme Arrogant . Deep inside , do you know anything ? Yes ! I am sensitive . Why ? That's because no one understands me . I need someone who's able to understand me ..

Evrytime I managed to walk away from my problems , someone / something will always drag me down again . Why ?

I don't know why the hell I post this when I actually have a journal to write it down and keep it safe & secure with me .. Well , somehow I guess , I'm just desperate for Friends ..

-sHd-

2009-07-14T17:43:00.001+08:00

I thought I'm the only one
Who's feeling down .
But instead ..
My babe are down too ...

Get up . Cheer up ! :D
I'll be here if you need me ..

-sHd-

2009-07-12T19:05:00.003+08:00

Prepaid was topped up already . Haha , for the first time , I actually had my prepaid card LOW after I stop all communication with my SMS buddy ..:D
Haha , siak .

Okay , today's gerek ! Most of my friends went out with family for outing or whatever during their weekends , but for me , Sunday is our 'Family Day' . We'll stay at home , clean the house in the morning and during the afternoon , we'll eat .
Well , it's not that we're [insert word] but , everyone wakes up late on Sundays ! :D Last night , my dad and I were sitting in front of the computers watching movies . We watched Wild Child , Over her dead body and Drag me to hell .
Oh yeah , while watching Wild Child at 3.30 am , both of us , plus my bro , heard baby's crying at the ground floor . We opened the window and yeah , look out and saw nothing but then , we heard a sound of a bird .. Which is very freaky . Never happened before , so whatever . I ignored it and pretend nothing happened even though I was so shocked .

Okay , back to story . We finished watching movies at 6.15 am . So after that , around 6.30 am , we went off to bed. ! :D My parents woke up early today .. Went shopping .. -.-
I was in bed , up till 2pm . Woke up , help my mom in the kitchen for a while today before they went out and then do my homework . Lately , my brains can't function very well .. o.0

Blah blah blah , my parents came back at 5 pm . They cooked Black Pepper Chicken Rice , my brother clean the house , my other brother do his art and I was in front of the computer printing out worksheets .

Silly me , I go and put my Lit worksheet in the kitchen and winds blow and fuushh .. All wet as it went to the SINK ! -.-
So yeah ..

Had my meal just now and later , I'll be going out and then , come back home and eat SATAY ! :D haha ...
Tk perlu siaaaa ...

OKay , byebye ~

-sHd-

2009-07-11T22:22:00.002+08:00

Okay , now I really don't know what's going on .
People whom I know in my life is now having crisis with their love / friends / buddies / family .. WHY ?!

I'm all stuck in the middle , don't know what to do , or even think ! First it was my babes . Second , it was my other babe , but all of them are fine now .
Third , it's my ________ .. -.-
Fourth , it's my , uhh .. How should I say this ? Okay , let's put it , A & B . Yeah , fourth it's them .

So who's next ? -.-
I'm getting pissed off with those who're having a crisis now . What is this ? July ? Month of crisis or something ?!

Seriously humans , life is just once . Live it ! Don't waste it !

&& those who're asking me if I'm attached , NO I AM NOT ! -.-
Stop wasting your credit & flooding my inbox with that ...

-sHd-

2009-07-10T17:09:00.002+08:00

OKay ..
Great to hear that everyone is fine now ! :D
OKay .. So , just ignore my previous post yeh yeh ? :D

Okay ... I have no idea what's up with me nowadays . Lately , I've been talking a whole lot of death . I'm listening to all my used-to-be favourite songs . I've been writing all about hatred , revenge , death , soul ... What's up ? ..

Well , I know this is what happening to me , but just don't ask , cause I don't think I have the answer . (:

Oh yeah , I've read this malay novel and there's the word PUNAT in it , which many people will laugh their ass off when they heard this word cause they think it's the private part of a girl ..
Well , I checked out the meaning in a Malay Dictionary and the meaning is :

Punat :
1) benih (bisul dan lain-lain) , mata bintil (bengkak dan lain-lain) : macam bisul yang pecah ~ nya
2) sumber segala kejahatan
3) tombol (lampu , radio , dan lain-lain) : ia memetik ~ lampu di dinding dan ruang itu menjadi terang .

THAT'S ALL ! -.-
But the word in my book is like , menekan punat merah pada telefon bimbitnya , which is , pressing the red BUTTON on his cellphone .. -.-

LOL ! ..

-sHd-

2009-07-09T20:24:00.003+08:00

Hey ..

Today , everyone is effed up with friends (?) ..
Okay , first it's my friend & her twinneh , good to know they're fine now . Then it's another friend of mine who is suddenly so moody with her bestfriend .. Well , she's giving me the 'you're my stranger' look but I don't really care .. But .. seriously , I hated when there's friendship problems ..

BABES ,
Just get it down ASAP okay ? New things just started , it's like 3 days only ? And now we have friendship problems ? ..

Babes ,
You guys are the one I look out to as my inspiration & buddy .. You guys are my listening ears .. I look up to you guys when I have problems .. Now that there's friendship problems , all I kept inside of me , will remain there & new things will be added . My parents somewhat don't really bother if I have friends or whatsoever ..

I'm just getting better of that 'trauma' of friendships and now , you guys are gonna make it happen ? For the second time ? ..

You know , I'm pretty jealous of you guys having best buddy / bestfriend with you .. You guys have a so called 'partners' when we sit together .. Me ? I'm just alone , in the middle with no one to talk to . I do felt the awkwardness but I keep on telling myself ' tomorrow will be better ' even though I know that tomorrow and the upcoming days are just the same ..

Be happy & appreciate your best friends / buddies . Treasure those friendships you have with them . Don't judge them . Don't underestimate them . Trust them . Love them . Advice them . Keep no secrets in between .
Then , your friendships with that friend , will be cherish with laughter & smiles . Even though there's fight , you'll get over it ..

Don't be like me . I didn't appreciate my friends when I have them all around me . I pushed all the blames to them . I neglected them . I don't trust them . Now , see where I ended ? They're all with their friends but I'm still alone ..

Those days that I loved , are snatch away by the problems .
Babes ,
I just hope we'll remain friends .. Until we graduated ..

Maybe one day I'll die , you'll still remember me as a friend . (:

-sHd-

2009-07-08T18:58:00.002+08:00

Heyss..

Oh god , today was like .. toottooot ..
I was sleeping for the past 2 hours and what .. When I woke up , MY LIPS ARE SWELLING ! Hellyeah .. Swelling .. I don't know why .
Gosh , it hurts ! It's like , there's a big bump when I look down ..

Oh , so whatever . Woke up just now .. Then my mom asked me to accompany her somewhere , with my lips LIKE THIS ?! ..
I was sleeping , when I have homework and project to do ..
I was sleeping , and suddenly my lips are swelling .
I was sleeping , and my alarms dead , resulting not to wake me up at 6 ! -.-

Ohh .... Whateverrr ..... -.-
Oh yeah , I guess , I'm gonna get sick soon since my tempt today is like , 37.4 deg . :D

-sHd-

2009-07-07T16:02:00.003+08:00

Another day has passed ,
The moon fade
The sun rise
And another boring day appears ...

Well yeah .. (:
Okay , prepaid is ultimately low ! Yes people , for the first time now , it's low ! If he's around , he'll top it up for me .. Aww , how i miss that day . ):

Okay , yesterday .
Went to the Gym with bro & Erni . (: Yeah yeah .. Erni babe . (:
Gerek bohdowz ! :D

Okay , we're crapping around and work out . (:
& my first time with her , I guess I'm over-peramah . (:
Okay ... Whatever .
I guess we have sort of , lots in common . (;

After bathing and stuff , took the bus and went to JP at 7pm . Oh yeah , my bro lost his money . I have no idea how or why , but yeah .. His wallet was with me the whole time .. Well , except that I left it in the bag , at the bottom , covered with our clean clothes & my wallet was right next to his ! I didn't lost any but he did ! I was like , wtf ?! ..

OKay , at JP , went John Little & bought perfume . Bought this Japanese food right outside this Idk what shop . Then went to Popular and bought curve ruler & flexible long ruler .. LOL ! So , reached home and mom was baking for no reason ..
Ate chocolate cakes and help my bro with his hmwk , lil'bro I mean .. So finally slept at 12++ am .

Hmm .. Sha didn't come but great to hear she's fine now ! .. :D
Well , I guess I'm gonna be sick next cause my tempt is like , 37.5 ..
LOL !

If I'm given for MC for 10 days , I'll definately stay fresh at home ! :D HAHA !! ....
Okay , byebye ~

& ERNI BABE , you're the best ! :D

-sHd-

2009-07-06T12:12:00.003+08:00

Alamak , seriously ehk ,
I hate his hair ! !!
Kenapa mesti BOTAK ?! ...

Sigh . Da baek2 hawt2 , gy botakkan kepala ! -.-
Oh whatever ..
I WANT YOUR CELLPHONE NUMBER CANN ? :D

Okay , you know .. I don't know why I'm here to post when I've alot of homework to do ..
My mind can't stop thinking of that used to be hawt guy is not BOLD ! ahahaha ..

Aper2 jer lah ehk .. :D
I'm gonna go out later .. With bro , accompany him to gym & then he accompany me go JP . :D

Oh yeah ,
Dearest Girlfys , Friends & Readers ,
SHA is sick .. Last night she told me she is going to the hospital due to high fever & I'm not sure if she's warded ..

Let say she's warded , do you guys wanna visit here there ? ):

-sHd-

2009-07-05T12:35:00.002+08:00

Hey readers . (:

Oh , such a bore day & currently pissed off !
Guess what , people have been spreading my number to my classmates , well .. Almost all .. But hey , don't these type of people have some respect ?

Even though I might know who those people are , those who have my number , but can't they just ask me or something ? Is that so hard ?
I was like what the fuck when I received messages & calls from my classmates and other friends WHO DON'T HAVE MY NUMBER asking me about stuff which I think is not important !

Seriously ,
to these kiddos who have no life & just entertained themselves by spreading my number ,
please , get a hold of yourself and just stop this bullshit ! ..

What goes around , comes around . If you don't want me to spread your number , then don't spread mine !

-sHd-

2009-07-04T13:44:00.002+08:00

Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here to stay
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
You are not alone
I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
You are not alone

Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
Then forever can begin

Whisper three words and I'll come runnin'
And girl you know that
I'll be there

I don't know what song this lyrics belongs to but it has my attention .
Got it from Shoot Vengeance's blog .. Hah , lame tk gy blog dier .

OKay , today , I'm gonna rot all alone in my room completing those darn homework I got and some assignment . Plus , my stuff are not done yet !
Oh gosh ...

Well , currently rotting in front of the computer .. Oh no , that's an hour ago . Now , I'm currently chatting with Rebaz , a friend of mine from Netherlands , age 17 .
Hawt lahh ehk ! :D

okay , cukup !
Haizz .. Monday there's no school . Gonna miss staring at him .. ):

Oh gosh ,
bye ~

-sHd-

2009-07-04T00:26:00.003+08:00

Life's so darn bored .
But giving back HER the taste of her own medicine was
wayyy too fun ! :D
All thanks to my babes for helping me out . :D

Ms Wang is being to nice to us now .
She gave chances for those who doesn't do hmwk
& doesn't bring books ! :D
Woots~ Love the new change in her .. :D

Okay okay ..
I borrowed Memoirs of a Geisha
from the school lib and whoa , thick ! :D

OKAY , byebye ~ :D

Oh yeah ,
I love Akmal Haris ! :D
Sucha great guy .. :D
Yang terdekat sahaja tahu SIAPA dia . (:

-sHd-

2009-07-01T19:06:00.003+08:00

Cintaku untuk Si Dia
Semakin menebal .
Mengapa sukar untukku
Lenyapkan saja ?

Setelah cintaku kau khianati
Tetap tiada benci di hati .

Ku sanggup menanti
Untuk cinta mu
Yang entah bila akan
Menjadi milikku .

Biarpun beribu tahun
Kan ku setia menanti .
Biarpun beribu onak & duri
Yang hadir merobek hati
Ku sedia menghadapi .

Walaupun hanya setitik cinta
Yang kau beri
Ku tetap menghargainya .
Kerna diri mu , aku cintai .

Ooohh .. Seems like I'm not over it .
Well , I don't know . Maybe this thing is about me ,
or maybe it's not . You guys decide yeah . (:

There's just no faith to hold on now .
Rara babe , be strong . I understand how it feels . (:

-sHd-

2009-06-30T19:51:00.004+08:00

Yeah yeah ! :D
Update more now !:D
Read this & comment on the pictures too ! :D WOOTS~

Okeh okeh ! :D
Ni bukan nk pamerkan gambar bdk baik aku . LOL !:D
I wear that cause I went for my uncle's funeral , with plain , natural face .. :D

Well , okay , done with homework , not all . Now read this & comment ! :D

The sky is violet blue

Everything changes

Moon rises

Sun has gone

Nothing last forever .

Promises are left

Just plain , unfulfilled

What happened to your words

Just before you left ?

You say you care

You say you love

But there isn't a thing

You showed to me

What the fuck is this ?!

I've made up my mind

You don't make me shine

Past this 13th week

Your soul is mine .

Haha .. Well , I've got many ideas from different thing ! :D

1st stanza , I was looking outside the window , just a few moments ago & got that .

2nd stanza , inspiration from a novel I read , Kenangan Terindah .

3rd stanza , complication that happened between me & a friend of mine , long time ago .

4th stanza , what I used to write back in Primary 6 with Howie Babe . :D

Oh gawd , life's interesting . (:

-sHd-

2009-06-30T15:51:00.003+08:00

KARAATZZ ~ :D

Haha .. I don't have a single (complex maybe) of what KARAATZZ is about .. LOL !:D
You know , I don't know what am I doing here when I'm suppose to complete tons of homework & other stuff assignment .. :D

Okeh okeh ~
My babe , Lala A .
HAPPY 14TH BIRTHDAY TO YOU !
No pressie given today .. But tmrw , MAYBE !
:D
Sayang you many2 lahh beb ! :D HOHO , SMILE & STAY CUTE ALWAYS ! :D

oKEH .. This it to this freak ass who said about my other babe that it's somethingsomething wearing a somethingsomething skirt . LOL ! :D

Budak , tk mo jaga hal orang lain ehk ! :D Kau jaga hal kakak kau , yang sememangnya ader kene mengene ngan keluarga & hidup kau tu , da cukup abdal ehk ! :D

hoho ! :D
I know , you know .
Simply got nothing good to do now .. :D
&& Yeah .. I'm sick-o - infected from Nur Shafiqa Amira Az. (:

ABCDEFGHIJKLMNOPQRSTUVWXYZ
123456789 ~ :D

-sHd-

2009-06-28T21:28:00.003+08:00

Heyhey peopleys ~ I'm back ! :D

Well , I've been away to Malaysia for three days and yeah , homework's still incomplete ! :D
My Grandparents conduct a prayer for those who passed away , 'kenduri' lah kann ..
Went there on Friday morning , around 5.30 am and then slept till evening cause I'm damn tired ! .. Ard 6.40 pm , Keira disturbed me .. -.-
So yeah , woke up , bathe and played with cousin .. The next day , I helped everyone to cook ! :D My thigh , however you spell it , got burned .. My grandparents lived in a bungalow and yeah , we cooked outside .. So while I was stirring the idk what sauce , I was daydreaming and duushh .. so yeah .. :D

That night , got the prayers .. Aku tk leh angkat doks ! Fall asleep right after everyone went home ard 10 pm .. My dad , uncle and grandfather clean up everything up till 2am .

So the next day , which is today , I went back to Singapore ard 2pm . Here also got prayers cause my Uncle just passed away ..

You know , on 23June , my Uncle passed away , on 25June , my Aunt's idk who passed away and in the same week , MJ passed away .. ):

His Muslim name is MIKHAIL ?! GOD !!! ..
Tk der nama laen ehk ? ..
Haha .. OKeh okeh ..
BYEBYE ~ (:

oh yeah , new nick given by my Uncle , 'Chef Bahagia ' :D lol ! xD
-sHd-

2009-06-24T03:01:00.003+08:00

WOOTS ~ I'm back ! :D

Oh gosh , you know , I'm a whole lot happier now ! :D
OKay , Lovely Complex seriously gave me some inspiration .. You guys should check it out .. It's Anime by the way . (:
Go to http://www.anilinkz.com/ and search for that ! :D

Gosh , I'm ~~melting~~ away .. With them .. haha ..
Oh , whatever .

Well guys , here's a little something , for a little someone . (: LOL ! Kidding ! :D
Hah , here's for those , who're interested to read :

You asked me how I feel about you
I wouldn't say that I don't like you
Could it be you've been crying ?
You can be kind of cute
As you run away , I grab hold of your hand
Deep within my chest , something suddenly begins to stir
It would be nice if a study for guide love existed
There are too many problems I don't understand
It would be nice if a teacher for love existed
Does You + Me = Love , huh ?.

Okay , but happiness doesn't stay for so long right ? Today , at 5++ , my mom received a call , saying that her brother in Malaysia died . The sad thing is that , my siblings & I just got to know him ! We met 2 times ..! & It's just so sad to hear about death .

There's a slight prob of why he ended up in Malaysia that I couldn't understand but yeah ..
I still can't believe it ..

-sHd-

2009-06-21T16:52:00.003+08:00

Hey , I'm back again .
(:

Well , okay , felt kinda alright now .. For those who knows
what happen , thank you for always being there yeah . (:
Wan A. , thanks a whole lot to you .. (:

Well readers , I'll be back after the June holidays . Well , I
may online for sometime now ard 3.30 onwards but only for
a while . To update here , tagged , facebook & friendster .

Kekasihku datang dan hilang
Bersama sang mentari dan bayu .
Ku tahu cinta mu bukan untukku .
Tapi maaf kerna ku tetap kan tunggu diri mu .

-sHd-

2009-06-18T17:06:00.003+08:00

I guess I'm back ..
Well , just telling you readers ..
My Private Blog is unlocked , so
whoever wish to answer the questions , please do so
&& all the instructions are there ..
Read it ..

Bye ~

:ND~ (:

2009-06-13T23:29:00.002+08:00

Hey readers .. (:

Good news I got for you guys ..
I'm gonna be away for a long , long time , until school starts ! :D Well , I'm not so sure if I'm gonna attend school too .. ! :D
Wohoo ~ :D

&& Yeah , it's a win-win situation ! :D
You guys don't have to tag my blog & I don't have to feel lonely again .. :D
Isn't that cool ?! :D

Okay ! :D
Goodbyes ~

Pretenders , you don't have to say 'I'm gonna miss you ' ..(:
cause I'm not gonna reply , save for prepaid yeah ! :D
Once again ,
I'm still not ready to change !

The old SHD- will come back , soon ! (:

-sHd-

2009-06-12T22:56:00.002+08:00

I don't know if people actually bothered to go to my private blog and answer the questions .. Especially those whom I already gave the permission ..
Seriously guys , I need the answers , ASAP ..

Nowadays , I've been feeling so down .. I suddenly lost interest in life ..
Why ? Anyone bother to answer ?

-sHd-

2009-06-11T18:07:00.003+08:00

OKay , yang terlepas , biarlah ia pergi . Semakin dikenang , semakin menyala api kebencian ku .. (:

Hah , lol ! .. OKay , just got back , haven't bathe and was texting my friend .. (: Woots .~
Okay..
Today was GEREK ! :D

Should Thank Lala sis , whom I don't have any clue what's her name , for treating us Starbuck drinks ! :D Woo ~ ..
Yknow , I should also thank my bro for entering my room without permission just to wake me up .. Haha .. Well , I do set my alarm , but I set at 10.30 when I'm suppose to wake up 1.5 hour earlier before 11 to iron my clothes .. LOL ! xD

Okay , went to City Hall to meet Lala's sis and relax for a while . Then took the MRT to Vivo .. Hah , we walk to our left & right to find which is the MRT to take to go to Harbour Front ! :D LOL ! xD
Finally , me , as usual the hero , GO to this Malay lady , who've been giggling at us , and asked her which is the train . She said "Kat atas" .. -.- LOL ! xD

Went to Vivo , eat at Banquet and then go to the last floor at the Skypark , I guess .. Zaza & Shekz (short form for Shekyn) injured their feet .. Is it feet or foot ? .. Oh whatever ..
Internal bleeding & Sha's freaking out .. LOL ! xD
All of us sent Za home and then they both went home after cam-whoring at the nearby park where all GUYS are staring at us ! ..
Luckily I'm not wearing dress ! !:D Woots ~

Okay , at the Skypark , we splash water at Lala .. Haha .. (:
She's the first one to get wet ..
Me, as usual , get it last .. Well , hero is not suppose to "die" at the beginning of the story .. :D

ZAZA ! SHE BACKSTABBED ME ! She told me " I'm good .. I'll help you .. " and then .. "Dushhh .. " ..-.- Baik kaperh ?! But only at the back , resulting me to get my ass wet ..
xD

Pictures with GF Sha . (:

Haha ! :D
Okay .. Still unable to watch Drag Me To Hell .. Nevermind ! :D
I'll go with my Babes ! :D
Woots .~

Goodbye ..~

&& Oh yeah , I love my Sayang ! :D
:ND~(:

2009-06-10T23:13:00.003+08:00

Okay , enough is enough ! ..
I'm already tired of getting told what to do !
I'm tired of being pushed all over !
I'm tired of being YOUR FUCKING DOG !
I'm tired of YOU , telling me what I'm suppose to do in MY LIFE!

Mind you ass .. This is my life ! I know that you've been helping me out when I'm down but you should take a look of what you're doing/saying ! WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS ?! ..

If you wanna enjoy, we'll have that !. If you think you want it your way , badly .. Then do it , without me ! ..

Some of you here , who're reading this post , might think that I'm posting all this is because I'm stress with my life & problems , if you've alrd read my private blog .. Actually NO ! ..
The reason why I created that blog is because ,
I'm too scared to tell them , who're involved , that I'm not happy with what's going on .. So I created a blog to BITCH behind THEM !

So now .. If I'm not happy with YOU , I'll tell you DIRECTLY .. Whether if it's in the net , sms , calls , mails or face-to-face ..

And seriously I have to ask ,
"APASAL HARI NI SEMUA ORANG BUAT PRANGAI ?!"

-sHd-

2009-06-10T21:05:00.004+08:00

Haha ! Helloh ! ~:D

Oh gosh , I guess I'm gonna felt awkward walking with my girlf tomorrow .. Cause they're gonna wear a ~~DRESS!~~ which I don't have any ! :D Haha .. Maybe I do , but it's showing too many skin .. HAHA .. xD

Whatever , updates coming tomorrow , I guess ! :D

:ND~(:

2009-06-09T03:13:00.002+08:00

Helloh Night Loves ~
Well , I'm just bored & unable to sleep .. (:
Okay , I have no idea on what to post right now ..

Let's crap around to see if I have any ideas on what to post ..
-5 mins later- , hey guys / gals / babes / hunks / ladies / gentleman ,
if you guys love to read novels , I got one ! :D
& it's very unique too ! :D

Look for this title , Syair Cinta by Intan Arnida ..
This story is yeah , romance , suspense and very very unique ! :D ..
The story is like whoa-ing ! :D HAHA ..
*see , it's a crap !*

Okay .. . Anyway lovable peoples ,
if you guys have Tagged / Facebook / Friendster / Multiply account ,
do drop by my profile and give me comments or something ! :D

Well , I do have Twitter & Myspace , but it's inactive cause I lost the
pass .. (: Hah , well .. I'll update soon . Dad's comin' home soon ! :D

Goodbye & Nitez ~
:ND~(:

2009-06-08T14:12:00.002+08:00

Oh no , I lost my ear stud and I injured my 2 hole piercing .. -.-

Okay , here's another post , updating on the pics of the hottest / cutest / sexiest creature .. (:
Take a look & enjoy ..

Jason Dolley , 6th position .

Robert Pattinson , 5th position .

Synyster Gates , 4th position .

David Desrosiers , 3rd position .

Josh Farro , 2nd position .

Frank Anthony Thomas Iero Junior , 1ST POSITION !

You see , he have that sexy smile (pic 4 , bottom right ) , that cute innocent face (pic 2 , top right ) & hot faces ( pic 1 & 3 , top left & bottom left ) . Haha , that's why I love him , alot ! (: .

Okay , okay , I know that I owed you guys another pic of Angel , my friend .. But yeah , I'll update it as soon as possible aites ~ .. (:

:ND~(:

2009-06-08T01:36:00.002+08:00

Oh baby , I missed you , hell lot .. But hey , this picture reminds me of how you rock my heart , inside out , baby .. (:

Hey peoples.. ! :D
Obviously , I can't sleep today . Well , planning to stay up all night and study with my bro , but I don't know ..

Anyway .. Hottest List baby .. ,

Frank Iero
Jason Dolley
Guitarist from Paramore , forget his name .. (:
Angel , my friend ..
Robert Pattinson , however you spell it ..

But you see , I only love one , for 3 years .. (: You see , setia siaa .. (: ..
I only love Frank Anthony Thomas Iero Junior , rhythm guitarist from My Chemical Romance & lead vocalist from Leathermouth .. He's also used to be in a band known as Prency Prep ! :D

Now , he's 27 .. Will be 28 after 31 October ..
You see ! I know alot ! :D
Harharhar ..

OKay .. Yknow , I can't get him outta my mind since the day I watched a video about him going to LA ink to get his tattoo done by Kat Von D .

As you gaze into his eyes , you know how sexy he can be ..
You should take a look on him in youtube . (:
He's wayyy hotter than the Way Brothers , Ray & BOB !

To :
Howie babe , yeah , you see it !
Frank Anthony Thomas Iero Junior is WAYYYYYY HOTTER than your ~~BOB BRYAR~~ ! :D

So babe , BE JEALOUS , cause I'm telling you , HE'S HAWT ! :D

:ND~(:

2009-06-06T18:36:00.003+08:00

Why do people have to bring up the past again ?

Okay , I'm just confused . Whatever . Goodbye ~

:ND~(:

2009-06-04T19:59:00.003+08:00

Don't mind me for my dumbness people ..
Yknow , I skipped school today cause I thought today is Wed . Cool isn't it ?! LOL ! So I gotta go school tmrw for remedial .. -.- Next week , I'm not gonna be around .

Gosh , I'm officially bankrupt . No outings for now yeah .. I don't even have enough money for school .. LOL ! Just how cool do you think that is ? ..

Okay , I'm damn bored , tired , lazy , confused & frustrated . I didn't hand up my math homework before the school holidays and I promised ms Wang that I'm gonna hand it up to her after school but I end up rushing straight home after it cause I wanna go Vivo ..
So thought of doing a good thing by doing my work and hand it up to her tmrw but hah , still can't get it !

I'm supposed to do graphs and yknow , the lines shouldn't be parallel but mine is ALWAYS parallel ! So I re-do it again and again but still can't find it ! Now , I'm gonna sit here for like an hour to do another homework which is a Live Chat with other kiddos from other countries .
It's cool but yeah , it's frustrating cause not all of them would turn up ! -.-

Whatever .. Goodbyes ~
:ND~(:

2009-06-02T22:42:00.003+08:00

What's up with today ? I've been missing a whole lot of people . I miss my friends . I miss my internet buddies . I miss my teachers . I miss everyone . I miss myself ...
Seriously , what's up with today ?

Urghh .. Forced to do something even though my parents didn't allow me .. -.- Sigh .
Got into an argument with this sales girl in Gek Poh . -.-
Have you ever heard of something which says you're unable to refund or change a broken item ? The thing cost $23 summore ! -.- I almost throw all her stuff down ..
Not only her , she called her boss and yeah , argue abit with him .. Finally , both gave in and it took like at least half an hour ! -.- ..

Just complete my bro's HE coursework which requires me to crack my brain shell to get ideas which is crappy ..
Oh gosh , I gotta sleep . Need to meet Acah B . tmrw in stadium , I guess ..

Nitey Nite . :)
:ND~(:

2009-06-02T09:18:00.004+08:00

Rindunya aku saat ini

Rindu pada mu kasih

Puas ku cuba menghubungi mu

Namun kau diam membisu

Apa salahnya diri ini

Kau seksakan hidupku

Pergi mu 'tika ku memerlukan

Cebisan kasih dan sayang .

Aku inginkan cinta yang berkekalan

Kau damba perpisahan

Menangis hatiku menangis

Mendengarkan khabar hiba

Terhiris jiwa ku terhiris

Mengalir airmata

Sayang ,

Mengapa buat begini

Di saat rindu

Merah menyala

Kasih ,

Ku sangka kau kan setia

Rupanya dikau bersandiwara .

Sayang ,

Haruskah kita berpisah

Angkara orang ketiga

Janganlah kau pergi dariku , kasih

Kerana kau masih ku cinta .

Sepinya aku saat ini

Diri tersisih jauh

Kau tetap dengan keegoanmu

Untuk meninggalkan aku.

Haruskah kita berpisah ?

:ND~(:

2009-06-01T12:40:00.013+08:00

Hey ! :D
I'm not gonna talk much today cause yeah , not feeling well . Been out on Sat & Sun , day till night .
Okay , on Saturday , Shidah & I went for our CCA thingy which we've paid to go for this trail-walking thingy . We walked from Idk where to Vivo City . HAHA .. After that , went to Vivo with Shidah . I didn't know that Shidah never been to Vivo before so I decided to split up from the others and yeah , have our own time . But then she told me she've never been there . As for me , the last time I went there is on 18 Dec 2008 ! :D So yeah , walk around and end up in LJS cause we can't find Banquet ! :D HAHA ..

THEN window-shopped and went to the 4th floor to 'wash' our feet .. LOL !.. Okay here's the pic !:D

Later that night , went to GP to have my dinner cause mum didn't cook . At first , it wasn't our plan. Mum wanted to bring my bro to clinic cause idk what and then I decided to follow them cause I'm hungry and too lazy to cook . So yeah ..

Here's the Sunday picture . Went to the multi-purpose hall near 606 for someone's wedding . There , I met Mdm Norsidah and hah , we're joking around and okay , kinda cool . My mum met her old friend , coincidentally . Only then I know that my mum's friend , Nora , is actually a Make-Up artist and loves modelling ! :D HAHA .. Coolness ! :D ..

In the car , muke tengah stim .

Getting nuts .

Went to Vivo after that . Hang around and go shopping . Too bad , I've no mood ..

After that , went to Fig & Olive's . Oh yeah , don't eat there . The food taste horrible ! Except for the Bewinkle Chocolate , choc milkshake .

So yeah , I skipped CCA today cause I'm damn tired and not feeling well . Gosh , I've should have went back home earlier ... Acah B . texted me asking me if I wanna go shopping today and hah , I can't and NO cause yeah , spent my allowance already and all left with $20 to bear till this 22 June .. Dad just gave me $150 on 22 May and now , just the 1st of June , I'm left with $22 ..

Sorry babes , no shopping or outing for now till 22nd . Okay , maybe I can .. lols , whatever & nevermind .. Goodbyes ~

:ND~ (:

2009-05-31T00:11:00.002+08:00

Okay , hey . As you can see , today is like the starting of school holidays ? Yeah , that's it . (: Most probably no kiddos will enjoy it cause yeah , we still have to report to school for CCAs and classes ..

Anyway , I don't know what else to say . The previous blog , I'll put an end to it and I'm gonna give this blog link to those who know me & close to me . (:
People , when you link me , please put ND (: . Idk where I got it but yeah .. Haha .. Whatever .. (:

Well people , enjoy your holidays . (:
&& Yeah , ystd , I gave a card to Mr Hafiz cause it's his last day in the school , I wrote everyone's name . I'm nice , aren't I ? :D Haha , yeah right .. :D

I wrote :
Goodbyes will always be goodbyes . But I just hope that you'll remember us , forever . (:
Masa berlalu begitu pantas , jangan mempersiakannya . Apa yang terlepas , tak mungkin akan dapat kembali . (:

The greatest teacher ever , will always gets nice thing at the end of the day . (:

~:ND (: